45 minutes later ..
Me and TJ was laying down , spooning.
He had his arms wrapped around me so tight.
I put my hand behind my head and started playing with his dreads.
It sounded like he was sleep.
"Pop you sleep?" I asked , still playing with his dreads.
"Mhm." He mumbled.
"Get up .. we need to talk about something."
"What we gotta talk about?" He sighed.
"So um .. Ki'moura's pregnant and it's Demony's .. and before she came and told you , I wanted to tell you so you wouldn't think I'm using you to get back at them." I said.
"If it's not to get back at them .. why you here?" He asked smartly.
"Um i'm here with you because I enjoy spending time with you." I snapped.
"Do enjoy spending time with me or do you enjoy fucking me??" he snapped back.
"TJ why you acting like that?! Before we starting fucking , me and you always enjoyed each other's company. Why you always make everything about sex?!"
"I make everything about sex?! NIGGA YOU CAME OVER HERE WITH THE INTENTIONS TO FUCK!" He sat up and yelled at me.
"THATS ONLY BECAUSE YOUR THOT ASS SISTER FUCKED MY BROTHER AND GOTTA SEED PLANTED IN HER! I NEEDED A OUTLET TO FREE SOME EMOTIONS " I stood up and yelled.
"BITCH DON'T TALK ABOUT MY SISTER WHEN WE COULD TALK ABOUT HALF THE SHIT YOUR BROTHER DID TO PEOPLE! TO
YOU! NIGGA HE CAME AND WHOOPED YO ASS AT THE SCHOOL IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY!"
"HES MY BIG BROTHER!! WHAT DID YOU EXPECT HIM TO DO AFTER I KEPT GETTING IN TROUBLE! I NEVER DID ANYTHING TO DO KI'MOURA WRONG LIKE THAT! YOU KNOW THEY WAS FUCKING BEFORE ME AND YOU STARTED FUCKING?! AND HERE I WAS FEELING BAD THAT I KEPT A SECRET FROM MY BESTFRIEND AND SHE WAS OUT HERE FUCKING DEMONY!" I snapped.
"You felt bad?! I FELT BAD! IM OUT HERE FUCKING MY DAY ONES LIL BROTHER! NIGGA I WATCHED YOU GROW UP! THE WHOLE HOOD DID! WHAT IF THEY FIND OUT WE FUCKING?! YOU KNOW HOW THEY GON TREAT ME OUT THERE?!" He snapped back.
"LISTEN NONE OF THIS SHIT WOULD'VE HAPPENED IF YO HOE ASS SITER KEPT HER LEGS CLOSED!" I yelled as I put on my jeans.
TJ ran to my side of the bed and grabbed me by my throat.
Hard.
A lil too hard.
He threw me to the floor.
He stood over me and grabbed my face to make sure I was looking at him.
"Don't .. disrespect my sister." He said lowly.
I thought about saying sorry and getting some more good ass dick but um .. I was not going down like that.
I spat in his face.
"Fuck yo sister." I said.
He cocked his arm back and punched me in my eye.
I screamed and held my eye.
That shit hurt.
I felt my eye swelling up already.
I couldn't tell if it was bleeding or if it was my tears.
Nah .. it was blood.
He stared at me as I cried and held my eye.
It was pouring blood.
My knees to my chest.
My head to my knees.
He sucked his teeth and ran to bathroom.
He came back with 5 towels.
He threw them on the bed.
He picked me up with my head in one arm and my legs in the other.
He sat on the bed and kept holding me.
He grabbed one of the towels and unraveled it.
"Move ya hand." He said.
I moved my hand.
The expression on his face went from I don't give a fuck , to damn I fucked up.
He sighed and kissed my forehead.
He started wiping the blood off my eyes and my face.
The pain I felt in my eye was nothing compared to the pain I felt inside.
My bestfriend fucked my brother and is pregnant.
Clay has another baby on the way and might be out to kill TJ.
Me and TJ so toxic , it's fucking ridiculous.
And I'm cheating on Clay .. with TJ and that's not even the reason they got beef.
I'm real life tired of this shit.
TJ finished cleaning my eye.
He walked all the way downstairs to get a bag of ice with me still in his arms.
We came back upstairs and laid on the bed.
I laid on his chest while he held the ice on my eye.
We didn't talk.
We didn't look at each other.
We just breathed with each other.
The same pace and all.
Yes , I do feel a connection with TJ.
But then again I don't.
He's good for sex and all that but honest not really anything else.
I've never seen him in a relationship for longer then 2 months.
He a street nigga that outside all the time either selling or doing street shifts.
But me and Clay ..
That's sum a lil different.
Me and Clay bond off of hurt.
Off of everything he put me thru.
All the secrets and lies.
But I love that stupid ass nigga.
I don't love TJ.
But he loves me.
Shouldn't that be enough to get what I want?
