Chapter Thirty Three

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Helloooooo everyone, another doozy for y'all today! Know it's been a while, Imma try to lower the word count in the future to make chapters quicker to release.

Before that though - ahem.

LOOK AT IZZY! DON'T SHE LOOK FANTASTIC?! Brought by my muse somethingspookyish - if you haven't read Untethered yet? Go

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LOOK AT IZZY! DON'T SHE LOOK FANTASTIC?! Brought by my muse somethingspookyish - if you haven't read Untethered yet? Go. Run. I swear you will NOT be disappointed. Love you bish!

Without further ado...

No surrender, no retreat, I will tear down every wall...

I truly wish I could say that sleep was peaceful, that I was just fine to rest on my own without the warmth of the two men I fell so hard for, that allowed me to escape a good measure of the anxiety I felt. It'd make me feel better about myself. Sleep was stolen away from me quickly enough, the soft tune of Eijirou's hummed song soothing me along with the scent left over, but it didn't help entirely.

I still woke up off and on with a start, feeling that something was 'wrong', taking a moment to realize that I was alone and not fall into a mini panic. Dumb, missing them like that, but I did. They had already bored that deep into my heart, that yearning to be surrounded by their warmth and the weight of their hold to ground me. A silent show that everything was going to be alright.

Maybe I needed to invest in a weighted blanket or something... They needed their time alone, and it was up to me to figure out how to salve the anxiety from being apart.

By the fourth time I jolted awake, I forced myself to shift around – much to Seb's annoyance, shoving pillows under me and rolling fully onto my stomach to rest on top of them, wilting into the bed with a sigh as I rubbed away some tears. Not good enough, but it helped. Seb curling atop my back to add some extra weight between my wings helped me to cycle down further.

Gods, I was so damn worried about Sis... It leaked into my dreams the moment I lost focus on the reassurance given by Izuku, causing those shocks to wake me in minor scares atop the lack of my loves' presences. Dreaming of good memories here and there, a sudden twist in that former reality to where she just... Disappeared, and I felt a deeper emptiness. My mind was definitely not my best friend, and it was downright cruel in my sleep this time.

It managed to shut down after I pulled the oversized hood up, hiding away entirely in the cinnamon and earthen scent, my sleep finally peaceful. Hugging those pillows and my stuffy tight, convincing myself that the hope I had wasn't fleeting, that it truly would be okay eventually. Sis would get better, the shady Commission practices would be annihilated; all of us, our friends and loves, could have a warm future, full of possibilities and happiness...

It was a shrill sound that finally made me wake after a few hours, cracking my eyes open, drowsily looking to the side. The hell... My phone? Groaning and stretching out to grasp and tug it off of the charger, I smiled sleepily at seeing Keigo's nickname on the screen, answering it and snugging it to my ear, yawning.

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