Stray Kids X Stay [BOOK 2]

Go Away - BangChan

"Y/n, go away" Bangchan said that a made you take back by his words.
"Bangchan, did I do something to make you this angry at me?" You ask him.
"I'm not angry at you, y/n" he whisper.
"Then..why are you asking me to go away from you?" You ask him.
"I just need some time alone." He said, not looking at you.
"Channie?" You call him softly.
"Please. I need some time" he plead and you left.

The next day, you come back to meet him again. You come to his studio to see him making his music like always. You notice how tired he looked so you wrap your arms around his shoulder.
"Take some rest, Channie" you whisper that made him sigh.
"Y/n, I need to work" he continued clicking things on the monitor.
"But you had work hard today. How about taking a few minute rest. Hmm?" You try to persuade him.
"I can't, y/n. I need to finish this" he said.
"Please...come on" you try again and he eventually agreed.

Both of you sat on the sofa behind. You pat your lap for him to lay his head on like he always do. At first he reject your offer but you insisted.
"Isn't this nice?" You said while softly caress his curls.
"I miss this" he said that made you chuckle.
"We always do this and you said you miss this?" You said making him wrap his arms around your waist.
"I just wanted to say those words" he said, burying his face on your stomach.
"Don't you worry about missing it, Channie. I'm not going anywhere" you said as he hum to it.

Each day, you will always visit him to his studio even tho he will sometimes ask you to go away but you didn't even bother to ask why he kept on telling you to go away. He always wanted to keep you close to him back then but suddenly he change that made you feel abit confuse if he still love you like he always had.

"Channie, you called out his name while sitting beside him, watching him doing his work.
"What is it, y/n?" He tiredly ask.
"Do you still love me?" You ask, while hugging your knees together.

He kept quite and you grew impatience waiting for his answer.
"Channie?! Do you still love me or not?" You ask again.
"Why do you want to know that?" He ask, still focusing on his monitor.
"Because you haven't been showing me affection like you always do and you always tell me to go away. You even busy yourself by always being in your studio." You pout sadly.
"Am I?" He ask and you said yes.
"Why do you think I'm being like this, y/n?" He ask you a question.
"How should I know that?! You're the one who should tell me what is the reason that you're acting like this!" You raise your voice at him.

Bangchan stayed quiet again and murmur something under his breath.
"There you go again! Muttering words! What are you even saying to yourself!? Tell me so we can fix it together. I can help you, Bangchan" you said but he shook his head.
"Even if I told you, you unable to help me in anyways you can, y/n" he said.
"What do you mean?! I have always been there to help you and you know that! What is the things that I unable to help you, Bangchan?" You ask.
"It's just impossible, y/n" he said that made you stomp furiously.
"Just tell me what is it, Christopher Bang Chan!! WHAT IS THE REASON YOU CAN'T TELL ME ABOUT IT?!" You shouted that a made him stand up frustratedly and hold onto your shoulder tightly.
"ITS BECAUSE YOU'RE DEAD, Y/N!!" He said that made your eyes wide by those words coming out from his mouth.

Bangchan lowered his head while slowly letting go of your shoulder.
"You're no longer on this earth, y/n. You past away 2 months ago." He said as his voice began to crack.
"The reason why I keep telling you to go away is because you need to move on." He said.
"That is why you're unable to help me in anyway I want you to. I want you to be alive again. To be able to breath the same air as me. To feel the warmness whenever we hug. To be able to walk around with you beside me, laughing at stupid stuff jokes but that is no longer available because you're dead, y/n" his tears start to stream down.
"I have been busying myself because I'm trying my best to forget about you. To move on from your dead. To find myself again after losing you. I'm trying my best to not kill myself so that we can be together. I can't do that because I still have goals to reach and the boys need me" he said that made you tears up.
"Bangchan, I'm so sorry" you wrap your arms around his neck.
"I don't even know how you can still touch me even tho I know you're a ghost. I want this to remain but I know I can't. You have to move on, y/n. I don't you to suffer on earth as a lose soul. I want you to go to heaven and be happy there" he try to show you a smile even tho his eyes were filled with sadness.
"I don't want to leave you, Channie" you hug him tighter.
"Me too but we have to move on. I know it's hard but please try for the sake both of us" he said and you gave him a nod.
"I will always love you. I hope you find your happiness soon" you said as he plant a soft kiss on your forehead.
"I will always love you too, y/n. You will always hold a place in my heart and life. Goodbye, my love" he rest his forehead on yours.

He can feel you were slowly vanishing form his touches. After you were completely vanished he broke into a crying mess again.
"Let's meet again in our another life, my love" he said directly for you.