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lol still not Atsumu's POV

{Iwazumi's POV}

When Oikawa hung up, I buried my head into my hands. Had he found out? How much did he know? Was he mad? He didn't seem mad...

I couldn't help but overthink.

This was my first boyfriend, I thought I loved him...

Is it possible to love 2 people?

I hit shuffle on one of my favorite playlists and grabbed my laptop. I was going to figure things out tonight, and stop putting everything off. I needed to sort out my feelings.

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When Oikawa knocked on my door, I was prepared—or at least I thought.

I didn't expect him to be crying, and immediately fall into my arms when I opened the door.

I was startled, but recovered quickly. Shutting the door, and trying not to alert my parents, I walked us back up the stairs.

"Hey, what's wrong? I know you wanted to talk, but just know I'm here for you" I said while rubbing circles into his back.

"There's—" he took a deep breath, sniffling, "..so much going on in my head right n-now."

"It's alright, take your time."

With that, he buried his head into my chest and cried. We stayed there for another 10 minutes until he wasn't shaking.

"So, you know Atsumu-" he began, and I froze up. He knew, and he was going to confront me on it. Oh god— "Well, I uhm- IsortofthinkImighthaveacrushonhim... butdontgetmewrong, IloveyousomuchitsjustthatIthinkImightlovetwopeopleandIdontknowhowtotellyou-"

"Trashykawa, I can't understand you," I giggled. I knew what he said, but I was so relieved and everything was still processing.

"I love you, and I love someone else too. And I'm a mess right now because I'm afraid you're going to leave me because of it, and I'm sorry..."

I started giggling harder, until I was full on laughing.

"W-what?" He sniffed, glaring at me and pouting.

"Why would I leave you because of that? We're already gay, I can't get mad at you coming out again. And—for the record—I like the two of you too." I watched his expression go from faux annoyance-slash-sad to happy to extremely quizzical.

"How in the world do you manage that many facial expressions in a span of 5 seconds" I asked him while he sat there in thought.

Finally speaking up, he said eight words that I never knew would have as much meaning as they did, looking back. "I have a test for you to take."

He handed me his phone, a google form pulled up. He specifically instructed me not to read the title, and watched me the entire time to make sure I didn't. He even submitted it for me, which I thought was a little weird, but then proceeded to take it himself.

"I feel like I'm in one of those coming-of-age movies or something," he said, "like the character finds out he's gay and kisses a dude and bam."

"Please stop making heartstopper references, it's getting old-"

"I WILL TALK ABOUR HEARTSTOPPER WHEN I WANT, IWA-CHAN."

"Jeez, okay" I laughed, and he smiled at me.

"What?"

"You're just so adorable" he said, pinching my check.

"Ew, what are you- my grandma?"

"I'd be a fabulous grandma."

"Mhm..." I shot him a questioning glance, and he just shrugged.

The rest of the night was spent dancing to the playlist we made together and watching documentaries on haunted places, per Oikawa's request.

Little did we know how much would change in the next week.

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RAHHHH IM LOVING THIS TOO MUCH

i like how this book's "best rating" (according to wattpad) is 529th in polyamory, but i think the best rating should be the #14 in sakuatsuiwaoi? like the entirety of this book is about them, not JUST the gay-

n e ways 🙄

hope ur day will go/is going/has gone well :)

ily all /p

-ollie