ʙᴏʏꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ ᴀᴘᴘʟɪᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴꜱ - ꜱᴀᴋᴜᴀᴛꜱᴜɪᴡᴀᴏɪ

[22]

{Atsumu's POV}

I was cuddled up against Iwaizumi's side, feeling myself slowly drift off. I wasn't trying to stay awake, but something brought me back to reality—Sakusa's voice.

"Hey, Iwaizumi?" he asked softly, presumably trying not to wake Oikawa or me.

"Yeah?" Iwaizumi responded, keeping the same tone.

"How did you- ugh. How did you know you fell for two people?" he asked timidly.

"Oh god, I'm probably not the right person to ask that." Iwaizumi laughed, and I felt the vibrations against my chest. It was a calming feeling.

"Oh no it's okay, I was j-"

"No, I'll answer, it just might not make any sense" Iwaizumi cut him off.

"Oh, uh- okay, thanks." I felt Iwaizumi nod against the pillow.

"I'm not too sure. I knew I had talked for Oikawa, we were dating. But then I started getting the same feeling for him," he nodded to me. My stomach filled with butterflies, and I tried my hardest not to move. "Like I could be absolutely anyone and he'd still care about me. Like I could be myself around him. It's an almost ineffable feeling, you know? Falling deeper and deeper into your mind until your subconscious finally tells your conscious you have romantic feelings for them. It's a good feeling, but also a scary one. I didn't know if Oikawa felt the same way, or if he was willing to be in a relationship with two people."

I wanted to cry, I wanted to hug him, I wanted to tell him he was amazing and perfect and was the best boyfriend I could ever ask for. But I stayed still and sat there like I was sleeping.

I hope he didn't feel the tear fall down my cheek...

"That was- actually a really good explanation. Thanks again," Sakusa finally said.

Iwaizumi nodded a third time, laying his head back down to watch the television.

"Hey, Iwaizumi?" Sakusa said again.

"Yeah?" he replied, slowly sitting up as to not wake me, despite me being awake.

I opened my eyes slightly, assuming he wouldn't pay much attention to me since he thought I was asleep.

Then I watched my best friend kiss my boyfriend.

But I wasn't mad..?

It was more of a relieved feeling...

Like I was glad?

What was going on?

"Oh god- I should've asked, that was such a dick move, I'm sorry- oh god what did I do-" Sakusa started, but Iwaizumi started laughing. "What-?"

"God, you read my mind."

Did he like Sakusa..?

"Wait, hold on- what?" Sakusa asked, and Iwaizumi just kept smiling. "Are you saying what I think you're saying?" 

"Probably, but I can't be sure. What exactly do you think I'm saying?"

"Uh-... did that mean anything to you? Positively, I mean." Sakusa looked a little shaken up, and I found myself anticipating the answer as if I was watching some cliché telenovela.

"Yeah, it did," Iwaizumi finally responded.

"And you're not messing with me, like a joke or something?" 

"Of course not- that would be really messed up, I'm not that low."

At that, I zoned out, closed my eyes, and ignored the rest of the conversation. Did I like Sakusa? If he and Iwaizumi liked each other, could he join our relationship? Did Oikawa have feelings for him? I wished everything could be answered in one simple yes or no, but it wasn't like that. Of course feelings were complicated, and that's what sucks about love. It's inconsistent, and you're never sure until you find out for yourself.

But that's the thrill of it, right?

God, I'm in love.

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WTF?? 1K READS AND 100 VOTES? YOU GUYS ARE INSANE AND ILY SM

on another note, as an author i can see when you add my story to a public reading list, and some of you have TASTE, like jeez share these stories sooner 😩

1 more thing, HELP ME I CAUGHT FEELINGS FOR MY EX WHO I BROKE UP WITH BECAUSE I DIDNT HAVE FEELINGS FOR THEM BUT IDK IF THEY STILL LIKE ME???

WHAT DO I DO

-ollie <3