Unfinised writings

Try-hard? that's her

“Try-hard” - to make an apparent effort to excel but achieve only moderate success, especially when measured against an ambitious goal. 

I’m the try-hard. I tried my hardest to be the best throughout school, or what I thought was the best. I never ranked first; I barely made the top ten. I never achieved what I thought was the best. When I thought I was satisfied, I found a new person to envy. The lack of close friends didn’t help my anxiety or my self-doubt. My mother would tell me: “you did your best,” but was it my best? There was always a part of me that thought I could be better, that my best was unobtainable. Seeing people get rewarded for something I was good at crushed me. It didn’t matter if it was my friend who was awarded. I was devastated from the inside out. Even my favorite teacher didn’t see my efforts. I never gave up, though, so I’ll give myself that. My willpower was through the roof. That energy that fueled me inevitably had to run out at some point. 

And it did. The energy stopped flowing. 

I feel like this would make a good flavor for a charater and I might explore more on this one, but I'm lazy soooo

Curently on summer break and noticed that I have 0 friends so i'll have some free time to write me heart out

also i'm obssesed with talking like a pirate and it's baaaaddd

anyways have a good day/ night/afternoon