Noah beck sister

Chapter 9

I woke up the next morning still tightly held in Noah's arms he was awake but he hadn't moved. He obviously didn't want to disturb me. He noticed I was awake and kissed my head
Noah- good morning sweetheart
Grace- hey
I dig my head into his chest and he rubs my back
Grace- I don't want to leave you
Noah- and you won't
Grace- ok
Noah- come on we need to get ready for the day
Grace- what are we doing
Noah- I don't know yet
Grace- ok
We get up and walk into the kitchen and Marc and Heidi are in there
Marc- morning guys
Noah- good morning mr damelio
I sit down on a chair at the island
Heidi- would you like something to eat sweetie
Grace- no thank you
Noah- she will have a bowl of cereal please if that's ok
Heidi- of course do you want to choose or do you want me to surprise you
Grace- I don't want any thank you
Noah- surprise her
Heidi- ok
Noah- thank you
I look at Noah and gave him a bit of a death stare
Marc and Noah are just talking and heidi comes back with a bowl of cherrios after awhile and puts it infront of me
Grace- thank you
I just stare at it and start playing with the cereal
Noah- grace you need to eat
I look at him
Noah- please
Grace- I don't want to
Noah- please
Grace- no I don't want to eat it but I don't want to be a pain then you will make me go with him please
My eyes start watering up and a few tears fall
Noah- grace I know you don't want to eat but it's not optional and you can be as much as a pain as you want I am not leaving you
Grace- you say that but you have left before and you will leave me again but I can't go with him
I am now balling my eyes out and Noah is looking at me shocked and Marc and Heidi are looking at me with sympathy
Noah- grace I am not leaving you you need to get that in your head but I think we need to talk about this guy
Grace- no no I can't
He comes over to me and sits next to me and holds my hand
Noah- it might make you feel better
Grace- no it won't I just want to forget about it
Noah- you aren't though you are thinking about it grace you were pushing me away this whole time then as soon as this guys comes back you won't leave me
Grace- sorry
I let go of his hand and move to a seat further away from him. I feel unsafe away from him but I don't want him to know that
Noah- grace I don't mind you being with me I just think you need to talk to someone about this
I look down
Noah- I have booked a therapy appointment for you today
Grace- I don't need therapy I am fine see
I get up from the chair and wipe my tears and start to eat the cereal fast
Grace- see I am fine I am eating I am not crying
Noah- stop
Grace- no I am fine
I keep shoving the cereal down but Noah grabs the spoon and pulls me into a hug
Noah- it's ok to get help
I go to respond when I feel something coming up my throat. I run pass Heidi and go the sink and start throwing up. It was obviously the cereal coming back up I haven't really eaten much and then I was shoving it down really quick. I feel her grab my hair and hold it back and rub my back
Heidi- it's ok let it all out
I finally finish and I remember what used to happen when my parents would beat me and I was sick. I quickly drop to the floor and go over to the corner and cover my face and start crying
Grace- I am sorry I'll clean it please
Heidi- hey it's ok what's wrong
Grace- NO PLEASE
Noah- hey it's ok they aren't going to do anything
He comes over and holds me in his arms
Grace- no let go you said I was to attached
Noah- it's ok just breathe
He holds me in his arms and I start crying again I feel like all I am ever doing now a days is crying and I hate it after a few minutes I get up and walk over to the sink and go to start cleaning it
Heidi- it's ok I've got in
Grace- no it was my fault I shouldn't have been sick its disgusting
She looks at me a bit confused but mainly with sympathy
Heidi- it's normal to be sick you can't help it. Why don't you go watch a film or something and relax and I'll bring you some of my soup in later
Grace- ok thank you
I leave the room and go sit on the couch Noah follows behind me he sits down next to me so I stand up and move I don't want him to think I can't be without him but in reality all I want is for him to hold me and tell me everything is going to be ok
Noah- you can sit next to me you don't have to move
I just shake my head. He stands up and picks me up and then sits back down with me on his lap and I hold onto him tight. We start watching a film and the Heidi brings in some soup
Heidi- here you go
Grace-t-thank you
She places it on the coffee table and then leaves. I look up at Noah
Noah- it's ok you don't have to eat it she won't be mad
I lie my head on his chest and fall asleep.