Noah beck sister

Chapter 7

I woke up the next morning without anyone waking me up which was nice but I remembered what happened last night and I was kind of embarrassed and scared to go down and see all the boys again. I was debating sneaking out but there wasn't really much point and I doubt I would be in that much trouble but sneaking out would probably get me in a lot more. I sat there stuck in my own mind like usual when I heard someone knocking
Noah- grace can I come in
I didn't respond so he walked in anyway. He comes and sits on the end of my bed
Noah- how you feeling this morning
Grace- fine
Noah- you know I only want the best for you
Grace-hmm
Noah- can I ask you a question
Grace- depends
Noah- on what
Grace- what it is
Noah- ok, why aren't you eating
Grace- no you can't ask me a question
Noah- grace I am worried about you and if you don't give me a reason then I am going to have to take you to a doctor and I don't know what they will do
I know he was trying to scare me into telling him and it kind of worked well I want going to tell him the full reason about the bullying but maybe about the money
Grace- I don't want to go to the doctor
Noah- then please tell me sweetheart I want to help you
Grace- fine, once you left we didn't have money you were the only person that worked so you would always bring me home a meal but when you left we had no money and I couldn't exactly get a job I was to young no one would hire me so I would only get the occasional meal or scrap of food and I am used to it now that's all I need to survive so if I start eating again when you leave I am going to have to start all over again at least I am used to it now
Noah- I am so sorry that happened I didn't know it was that bad
Grace- you don't know a lot of things Noah
Noah- I know and I am sorry but I am not leaving again so you need to eat
Grace- I can't
Noah- grace when I say I am not leaving again I promise you I am going to be with you there is no getting rid of me 
A giggle a little bit and he pulls me into a hug
Noah- come on let's get some breakfast
Grace- fine
We go downstairs and I have a small bowl of cereal
Noah- grace
Grace- yeah
Noah- the funeral is today
Grace- I know
Noah- how you feeling
Grace- I don't know
Noah- you can always talk to me about it if you want
Grace- thanks
Noah- Dixie's coming over to help you get ready
Grace- o-ok

I few minutes later Dixie knocks on the door And Noah answers it
Noah- hi babe
Dixie- hey
They come into the living room
Dixie- hey grace
Grace- hi
Noah- why don't you get showered and then Dixie can help you after
Grace- no
Noah- what
Grace- I don't want a shower
Noah- why not
Grace- I just don't
Noah- come on grace don't be difficult
He picks me up and I start kicking and screaming
Grace- NO I DONT WANT A SHOWER
Noah- grace calm down you are ok
Grace- NO STOP
Noah- grace
He carriers me to my room and Dixie is right behind us. He places me on the bed and sits next to me I put my head down to hide it
Noah- why don't you want a shower I haven't seen you use it since you got here
I look down I don't want to tell him the real reason I already told him about the food and now he wants me to tell him about the shower
Noah- I can help you if you tell me
Grace- it doesn't matter
Dixie then comes and sits next to me
Dixie- you know if you don't want to tell Noah you can tell me
Grace- no I don't want to tell anyone
Noah- then go get a shower
Grace- no
Noah- grace you need to get one your hair is still salty from the sea
Grace- I don't care
He picks me up and takes me into the bathroom and I hold on to him a lot tighter so I he can't place me down
Dixie- ok how about we just wash your hair
Grace- no
Noah- grace
He sits me on the floor and I start to cry I pull me knees to my chest and rest my head on my knees
Noah- grace what happened
Grace- t-they h-h-held me u-under
I say in between sobs I felt Noah wrap his arms around me
Noah- I am so sorry
Grace- t-they d-didn't s-stop I-I couldn't b-breathe
Noah- I know I know I am sorry your ok though we won't do that I promise you
He holds me tight. I look up and see his eye are glossy and Dixie has a few tears dripping down her face
Noah- do you trust me
I nod
Noah- come here then
Me him and Dixie are all at the tub. The bath has a head the disconnects and has a shower head attached. Dixie takes it if and runs the water
Dixie- why don't you lean back with your hair over the tub and we will wash your hair
Grace- o-ok
I put my hair over the tub and I start to breathe quickly and she notices. She puts her hand at the top of my head to stop the water from going in my eyes
Dixie- is this ok
Grace- y-yeah
Noah holds my hand and when Dixie puts the water on my hair I squeeze it tighter
Noah- your ok I promise she is not going to hurt you
Dixie- this is so shampoo ok
I nod my head. She starts to put it in my hair and it feels really nice
Grace- that feels good
We are all laughing. She rinses it out
Dixie- ok you ready for conditioner this just goes at the bottom of your hair
Grace- ok
She puts it in
Dixie- ok we have to wait two minutes
I sat up properly
Noah- see the water isn't scary
I nod my head. Dixie grabs the head thing and sprays Noah
Noah- DIXIE
me and Dixie are laughing
Noah- why are you laughing
He grabs the head of Dixie and goes to spray me. I know he was joking but it scared me it brought back flashbacks
Grace- no please don't
I curl up in a ball and start to shake
Noah- I am sorry it won't hurt you
I nod my head And he hugs me
Dixie- alright it's been two minutes shall we rinse out the conditioner
Grace- yeah
I leaned back over and Dixie rinsed the conditioner out
Dixie- all done
Noah- you see it wasn't that bad
Grace- I guess, sorry for making a big deal
Noah- grace you have emotions and things might trigger them and if something does I want you to tell me so we can work through it like this
Grace- y-yeah
Dixie- ok come one we need to start getting dressed
We all stand up and leave the bathroom and am now in my room
Noah- I bought you this dress to wear
The dress is black not to long and kind of flowy
Grace- I love it thank you
I hug him. I think he was bit taken back that i had hugged him but he hugged me back
Noah- Dixie helped me chose it out
Grace- I thought it was to nice for you to pick out by yourself
We are all laughing
Noah- alright I am going to start getting ready I'll leave you two alone
Grace- ok
Noah leaves
Dixie- do you want to start drying your hair
Grace- y-yeah ok
I have never used a hair dryer before so I was kind of scared and embarrassed
Dixie- do you want me to do it for you
Grace- y-yes please
Dixie- ok come on come sit on this chair
I sit on the chair and she blow dryers my hair. Once it's done she starts getting some other things out
Dixie- do you want me to straighten, curl or just leave your hair
Tbh I don't really know how any of the stuff work apart for leave it obviously I don't know how they actually do that stuff to my hair
Grace- umm I don't mind
Dixie- how about we curl it
Grace- o-ok
She starts to curl my hair
Grace- Dixie
Dixie- yeah
Grace- can I ask you a question
Dixie- of course
Grace- would you be upset if your parents died
Dixie- yeah I would be very upset
Grace- oh
Dixie- is there any reason you asked that
Grace- I guess, I don't know if I do miss my parents or I even care that they are gone yet I feel like I should
Dixie- your in a bit of a sticky situation, your parents didn't treat you the way they should of so it's completely understandable if you don't miss them but If you do that's totally ok too
A few tears had escaped my eyes so I wipe them away
Grace- ok t-thank you
She finish doing my hair and then tells me to go put on the dress and I do. For the first time in a while I actually felt pretty in this dress it was kind of a shame what it was for but I don't know. I go out and see Dixie
Dixie- wow you look so pretty
Grace- thank you
Dixie- come on let's show Noah
We go to Noah's room and he is getting dressed he has no shirt on but he is dressed other then that
Noah- wow grace you look beautiful
Grace- thank you
I hug him and he kisses my head
Grace- Noah
Noah- yeah
Grace- who is going to be there
Noah- well there will be me and u Dixie and her family and then a few of there friends
Grace- w-what f-friends
Noah- I don't really know
Grace- oh
Noah- it's ok I'll be with you the whole time and if you want to cry or leave or anything you can and I will be right with you
I just look down. He picks my chin up with his finger and wipes away the tears that have fallen
Noah- what's wrong
Grace- I miss them
Noah- I know
Grace- I shouldn't though
Noah- I know these feelings are normal
Grace- I don't know how to feel I don't want to feel anything
He just pulls me into a hug and rubs my back

30 minutes later we are all finished getting dressed and charli Marc and Heidi come to the door and knock
Grace- I'll get it
I open the door
Charli- hey
Grace- hi
Marc- hey grace
Marc and Heidi seem really nice but I am still scared what they might do
Grace- h-hi
Heidi- hey sweetie
Grace- h-hey
They come in and I go and sit next to Noah it's kind of weird seeing everyone in this situation we are all in black and everyone is kind of uncertain how to feel. Obviously the damelios don't know what they were like so they probably don't care and Noah only kind of knows what they were like but I had to see and go through everything. We all got in a car and drove to the church at which the funeral was being held at.