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❂| 030. "I kissed Seb"- Paul

Death is a strange concept in various communities, afterlife, reincarnations, judgment, hell and heaven, nothing, end of the journey, but Death is inevitable, Sebastian floats in darkness, total silent, it was haunting but peaceful, white whisps of memories surrounds him, binding him to the reality, Isabella's laughter echoes in the void, he quickly turns, hands traveling through the memory, the birthday candles illuminating his face, Paul standing in the corner, smiling at like, the memory fades to dark smoke, mixing in the void. 

"Darling", Jasper's voice pulls him toward another memory, Sebastian's body felt light but restricting, "weird", he thinks to himself, before touching another ribbon of memory, the scene seems different, a birds-eye of his room, he remembers the day, the moon, the way his room was filled with lavender scent, cuddling with Jasper, head gently placed over his chest, his heartbeat acting as a lullaby for the vampire, forcing him to sleep and never wake up.

"Death is weird, it's not good", Sebastian uses his hand to swim through the void, hands dismissing any other memories around him, a whisp wrap around his neck, forcing him to see it, "Paul", he breathes his name, the silver fur, full moon, feral beast, the images blind his eyesight forcing him to open his eyes.

"But life, its full of adventures, it's not that bad", the sudden light makes him squint his eyes, the blue adjusts to the light, noticing the white room, "Seb", Charlie slowly leans on the bed, hands holding onto Sebastian's hand, he smiles at him, when he feels Sebastian squeezing his hand, "dad", Sebastian's voice was hoarse, throat parched, the only liquids going inside his body was through the IV tubes inserted into his arm, his fingers follow the oxygen tube ending under his nose.

"Dad", he calls for Charlie again, bringing their joined hand near his face, rubbing it onto his face, the memories leave him, except the one he dreads the most, "Charlie's broken face, the night they left", Sebastian breaks into tears, "oh lord, I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have left", he keeps on apologizing to Charlie, not noticing Jasper resting his eyes on the couch.

Charlie moves onto the bed, holding onto Sebastian's frame, the cast was squeezing between them, "you have nothing to apologize for", Charlie tells him, hands rubbing circles on his back, "no, no, please tell me you are angry or something, don't forgive me so easily", Sebastian was always closer to Charlie as compared to Isabella, the whole incident of meeting death closely, left him with guilt, what if he had died, without apologizing to Charlie.

"Seb, it's okay, you are fine, Bella is-", Sebastian reels back from Charlie, eyes searching for another bed in his room, "Bella, where's she?", his left-hand runs over the bedsheets in a frenzy, he remembers James's biting into her, then his memory is hazy, pain, power, anger, pain, he can remember only those after that, nothing else, just a blanket of cold around him, "Jasper", he speaks his name, there was something which Charlie notices, the way his son says his name, the Swans were never the religious people but the way Sebastian speaks his name, it isn't less than Devotion.

"Bella's okay, she's in a different room, your mom is with her", Sebastian takes a breath, in relief, "what happened?", he had hoped that the Cullens have weaved a story, something that Charlie can believe too, maybe he needs to believe it too, to forget that face, a face of a monster and nothing else.

"You tried to stop Bella from the fall", Charlie tells him, touching the hard cast over Sebastian's right arm, the one who passed the judgment on James, "you both fell two flights of stairs and then a window", Charlie moves little backward, removing him from the sight obstructing Sebastian to notice Jasper.

"Jasper and Edward, went with Dr. Cullen, you both went to meet them but Bella slipped, and you", Charlie slowly rubs his hand over Sebastian's hair, ruffling his already messy hair, holding back his tears too, when he had gotten the call, it felt like the world stopped and started crumbling around him, but he looked over at the photos, placed over the fireplace and begged strength to come inside him, to go see his children, "you tried to stop her, but slipped too", he knew Sebastian would have done it, always the protector brother, the Swans knew, that Sebastian loves his sister the most of them all and they have made a pact with it, long time ago.