TOO LATE {EDITED VERSION}

Chapter 7

LWJ POV

The knock repeated, but seeing that I didn't reply it went away, the moon was shining brightly, but not brighter than his smile, I wiped my tears away and took a bottle of Emperor's Smile from the secret cabin underneath my bed. I cleaned after myself and went out, I went to the watchtower, but nobody was there. I sat on the wall. 

Couldn't help my mind, I remembered the time when he snuck in two jars and even tried to bribe me. I want to laugh but held back. I wish we could go back to those days, go back to his past, and change things. Even if he'll hate me, I won't regret it, that sort of dream. How would it ever come true?

These feelings that I want to suppress but failed, the more I want to forget the memories the more I want to cherish them as they kept coming back to me, Lan Wangji, you've become mad. I can't deny how madly I'm in love with him, but what about him?

I drank the whole bottle and went for another round of drinks, after that, I don't know what happened and how I woke up in my room while having weight on my arm. My head hurts, I think this is what they call a hangover. 

My vision is spinning but his face is still clear. Wei Wuxian. I kept my voice to myself and sat up when he pushed me back down, the pain in my chest stings, "You remember last night?" He asks me with a strict voice, I replied to him strictly too, "Why are you here?" 

"Last night..." His voice was so cold and it carried a murderous aura that I was wondering what I did, "Drunk" He looked really angry but I heard him sigh heavily, "You clearly can't drink much, why di-" I didn't let him finish and cut him off, "I believe that what I do is none of your business."

I tried to get up, "Hey! Your injury!" My head felt a splitting pain and I passed out not clearly hearing what he said. 

When I woke up, Sizhui and Brother were there, he was sending me soul power while Sizhui was worried about me, "Brother, I'm fine"

His voice was strict like when we were young, "Don't move!" Sizhui clung to me and I let his head rest on my chest, I stroked his head while comforting him, "I'm fine, don't worry so much" I didn't expect that I ignored someone's presence in the room, that was until I heard the door, he ran out. 

What have I done? 

{Wei Wuxian POV}

I walked aimlessly not even knowing where I was heading, out of boredom something caught my ears, and I went to eavesdrop. 

A senior disciple and some junior ones were talking, "Eh, let me tell you a secret! It's about the legendary Hangguang-Jun." 

The juniors were all excited while I was overflowing with curiosity, I heard them talk. 

"15 to 16 years ago, Hangguang-Jun was beaten by Grandmaster Lan for covering up for the devil Yilling Laozu!" I can definitely hear the gasps of those junior disciples, I can also hear them despising me saying that I was the cause of Lan Zhan's change. That's true though. 

"After he was almost beaten to death with 33 disciple whips on him, he went somewhere that nobody knows, but what's more shocking was when he came back, he carried a child!" I could feel my heart shatter like how it did when I saw the destruction of Yunmeng. "Child?" It was unbelievable to my ears but the following words were crushing me. 

"That child is now the current Lan Sizhui, the only disciple of Hangguang-Jun, and his only~ SON" I can hear the juniors asking the senior how he can prove that. I didn't listen further, my heart was completely shattered.

How he can prove that? The care he had for Sizhui has long surpassed the disciple title, that was entirely clear, I can't help but reminiscence the time when he let Sizhui lay his head on his chest, the time when he was overly worried for him that day, just in what way could I compete with that child's mother? 

{Lan Wangji POV}

The night I fell asleep with worries on my mind, you're the most carefree and my most hated person back then, but why is it that I care about you the most too? (I took this from Branch in Trolls World Tour, tbh that part was heartbreaking) 

 I was sweating beads when I saw a scene in front of me, Wei Ying on the cliff, I screamed to myself NO. Knowing what would happen to hope for it to stop but you can't. 

I saw him smile, a sad and sincere smile, that's the last smile he showed me back then, the words he spoke reached my ears, "Lan Zhan, live well with your son. I know it sounds silly to wait for someone for decades, and it's also silly to hope that someone's waiting for you. But... I-I love y-you" He fell on the cliff and I couldn't reach his hand or stop him. 

I woke up all sweaty and soon teary, I cried my heart out in the lone jingshi without anyone by my side. The feeling of wanting someone near you, I felt the past 16 years of yearning for him haunting me. 

The next day Zewu-Jun called everyone present for a meeting and assigned us tasks, I think he was helping us when he assigned Wei Wuxian to my team, and together we reached Qinghe. 

Upon arriving at a tavern, we learned that there were only two rooms left, Jingyi offered to share a room with Sizhui, and that means that I have to share a room. I reached the room first, he followed after me and closed the door shut, "The injury on your chest..." 

I can't help my mouth, "You know the pain yourself, why bother asking" That came out rude, I was about to apologize when he said that he'd go for a walk. "Are you avoiding me on purpose?... Forget it" 

Although his voice was low, my ears aren't broken, I heard it crystal clear. I immediately ran after him and caught his hand, "Wei Ying!" 

I felt embarrassed for myself saying that I let go of his hand, "Stay inside, it's chilling at this time of the year, you'll be cold" Acting all rude a while ago and now caring for him, what would he think of me in his mind? 

A lot of things happened, he asked me random questions just to get the word bored out, like how I recognized him at Budha's feet. 

"The song, only three people know it. You, me, and Sizhui" 

{Wei Wuxian POV}

"You, me, and Sizhui" 

I was happy that he answered me but I don't want to get angry right now, something called two-timing or a harem does exist in this world and not only in those erotic books. 

Dinner soon came and I got him drunk on purpose, after that, I brought him back to the room and tucked him in properly, I went out to get fresh air when Wen Ning arrived. 

After a  few minutes of talk, I was about to go back and get his Bichen, but how unexpected of him to appear in front of our eyes with his shoes not worn properly. He shooed Wen Ning away, I mouthed him sorry while he looked confused. 

I can't believe he tied my hands, with his ribbon... He's going to get so embarrassed the next morning. After we were inside our room, he pinned me on the wall, "When did I have a son?" 

I can't help but wonder how'd he ponder my thoughts, "Isn't Sizhui your son? Everyone is talking about it" I was annoyed, really really annoyed. This might be the first I want to kill an innocent person out of my own will. 

"They must copy the rules 10 times for speaking behind people's back..." He's honestly too close that I could feel his breath, but when he is close, I can't help but think that it was just a dream, so I made a move. I moved forward and pressed my lips to his. 

He replied to the kiss, but after we parted he didn't make any move or noise, I raised his face that was hung on my shoulder, and he fell asleep. Damn...