TOO LATE {EDITED VERSION}

Chapter 10

Lan Zhan

It was already 9, time to sleep, although it has been my habit to sleep early, I can't help but think about a special certain person, I want to know if everything was just a dream or a warning. In the future, will that happen too? I shiver and tears came out like they were water flowing freely from my eyes, it felt so real... Will I really lose him? 

Wei Ying

I woke up in a weird dream, everything felt unclear and unfamiliar. But there's this same feeling I have whenever I think of Lan Zhan. I can't seem to remember the weird things, a piece of broken memories. 

Xuanwu Cave

A worried expression and a worried face flashed in front of him, "Wei Ying!" That voice was so familiar, but he didn't have any energy to reply or do anything. Wei Ying felt warmth around him, he was still holding tightly onto the black sword although he was already half-conscious. Worried Lan Wangji repeated his name again and again. 

"So uncomfortable and noisy!" Lan Zhan who doesn't know what he meant by noisy and uncomfortable, still trusts him, "You're burning up" Wei Ying who thought he was about to die, still wanted to tease Lan Wangji, his life would be worth dying in the hands of his beloved, but it won't be worth if he can't hear him sing even for once. 

"Lan Zhan, sing me a song please" Wei Ying begs him and Lan Zhan eventually did hum him a song, but before Wei Wuxian could know what the song's name was, he passed out and woke up on the streets. 

Streets

Everyone was talking about the poor child who was begging for food and money, a bright smiling boy passed by and saw the little kid who was begging for food and money, that little child has white and blue robes with cloud patterns, and his forehead had a blue piece of cloth. 

That little child who pitied him (young Wei Ying) was Lan Wangji when he was still a kid. He smiled brightly, "Ge, where's your family?" Asks the little smiling boy. "They died in a night hunt last year." Instead of crying, he was grinning widely, but Lan Zhan could see the sadness deep within his eyes. "Sorry... Here this is a gift for gege" 

Lan Zhan gave his butterfly toy to Wei Ying, "We'll meet again gege" Wei Ying thanked Lan Zhan who ran with a smile, what a bright kid. That was the first time someone spoke to him in such a caring tone. 

Soon the butterfly turned to dust and everything shattered, the next scene was truly familiar to him, Nevernight... 

Nevernight

"Wei Ying! STOP!" Lan Wangji begs him while screaming with all his might, Wei Ying can't be soft-hearted right now, he kept playing the flute while watching the man he loves covered in blood and wounds. He controlled the corpses so that they will stay away from his Lan Zhan. 

But eventually, Lan Wangji reached him, and without a second wasted the scene turned to Lan Wangji's shaking hands with a streak of blood in his Bichen, Wei Ying jumps off the cliff and Lan Wangji caught his hand, begging him to come back. 

He fell into the abyss of no return, but what he felt was different, suffocating waters. Just when he was about to drown and out of breath, someone took his hand and pulled him up. 

Caiyi (I wanna add this so badly)

He was held by Lan Wangji who dashed in his Bichen, soon he stared at his cold face without blinking for a second only for Lan Wangji to gaze back at him. His heart skips a beat but the scene once again changed. It was Wen Yuan calling each of them mama and papa. 

Red flushed cheeks and red ears were the results, then it was in Yiling. 

Yiling 

"Dad" Lan Wangji was being called dad in front of the crowd by a random stranger's child. He doesn't know how to comfort a crying child and thus the crowd was circling him, soon another voice reached their ears, "A'Yuan!" 

That voice was Wei Wuxian's, he scolded A'Yuan while secretly laughing at what Yuan had just done. 

It was all finally over and he woke up, What the hell? Unconscious desires appear in dreams, I know I like him but what are those? The pieces of memory I saw in my dreams, what are they hinting at?

A lot of things happened and soon they reached the Gusu Entrance, but they are yet to pass. They forgot their invitations. Soon the mighty Lan Wangji appeared, as soon as my eyes stared at his, and he stared into mine deeply. 

We were already floating in mid-air everyone turned to sand or disappeared, white fog hindered our vision. I woke up. All worried I barged into the room across mine, it was Lan Zhan's. Without a need for words, we both understood what just happened. 

3rd person POV

After some time talking to each other, they were hungry, Wei Ying was treated with the cold shoulder, exactly the same as how he treated the others. Lan Zhan ordered his own food while Wei Ying had spicy food and alcohol. After dinner, they both parted and agreed to talk with the juniors the next morning. 

Although Wei Ying nodded, deep inside he was hurt, those pieces of memories seemed to haunt him, on his bed staring at the ceiling he asks, Lan Zhan, you really care about Sizhui, It was 16 years ago when I died but you eventually had a child of 21? How hilarious... 

{Wei Ying POV}

You had him even before I died, which words of yours came from your heart? All those words, which were true? Tears dropped on the pillow making it wet, bringing me to Gusu was just so you can lock me up right? 

What am I even doing? Hoping for him to say no? If he does would I believe it? Why? Are those really lies? The tears? I'm going crazy... The moon was shining through his window, he was thirsty for an answer. But no one answered him. The moon shining on his face, it was not an awesome scenery anymore. Like before.

{Lan Zhan POV}

With his sword on the table watching the moon as it slowly brought light into the room, Wei Ying, all these years... I was waiting for you, what's really inside your mind? I just can't understand why I can't read you. You always smile even when you had the biggest problems and you laugh when your world is falling apart. 

But I know, deep inside you are hurting, rotting, didn't you say you yearned for love? Warmth? Care? But how can I give you what you need when I don't even know what's exactly inside your mind to smile when you were looking down just a minute ago? 

Mom left, dad left, you once left, but this time I won't let you. I'll follow you even if it's at the end of the world. I'll follow you even after death, but I wish that this love will be answered someday...

I looked at the moon, it was also full when he once left my hands, and he slipped right through. It was that time when I cried in my brother's arms. Wei Ying, you better give me a proper answer. That's what I only wish for. Tears dropped into the teacup in front of me, but would I care? 

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Being in the same place only a few distances apart, watching the same moon thinking about each other, how lucky would you be if there's also someone thinking about you when you're thinking about him. 

Endless tears rushed out from their eyes, sliding down to their cheeks, wishing the other would wipe them away. So near yet so far, a mere 16 years being apart, who would've thought that it would be so painful? 

Lan Zhan suffered for 16 years, but he knows that what Wei Ying suffered can't be compared to his suffering. They both suffered, but still couldn't let go of each other.