TOO LATE {EDITED VERSION}

Chapter 8

{Wei Wuxian POV}

I laid him on the bed safe and sound for the second time, I shook my head, what was I expecting? Well, even if it's just a night where we're lost in lust... Even if it did happen, I probably still won't be satisfied. I feel like drifting off to sleep. I was too drained to do anything else, I fall asleep on the floor with my head on the bed. 

{Lan Wangji POV}

I woke up with a small headache, I saw Wei Ying on the floor, his back and his neck should hurt, judging from his position I can already tell that he drifted off to sleep in the same place. Well it's impossible to say that he got drunk and stumbled on his own feet, he fell and that's what happened. 

I took him in my arms and took him to the bed when he clung his hands and wrapped his arms around my neck, he snuggled into me closer. I feel my face heating up, I placed him on the bed and tucked him in. I was about to go when he took my pinky, "Don't go" He sounds like he was begging. I sighed and shook his hand. 

I went to the table and placed my guqin, it's early in the morning better not to wake the others. I placed a silencing talisman and I played a tune, the same tune I hummed to him at Xuanwu Cave when he fell asleep on my arms, the same tune he played at Buddha's Feet, the same song that keeps playing in my head when I miss him, the same song I taught to Sizhui, the same song I used to find him... Wangxian.

{Wei Wuxian POV}

When he shook off my hand, I felt... Hurt, was there really no more chance for us? I was pretending to be asleep and clung to him like an animal yearning for warmth, but he placed me in the bed, not enjoying it even the littlest bit. I feel empty, I feel shattered, but is it right to say that I feel betrayed? Do I even have the right to say so? 

NO

I don't have the right to say that he betrayed me, cause there were no promises between us, my words before... He can just treat it like trash like how others treated me at that time. I shiver in recalling the bad memories of myself when I was young, the dogs chasing me, some people kicking me and bullying me... 

I heard a tune, warm tune, I need not open my eyes to see who it was, it was Lan Zhan. It's the same tune I heard at Xuanwu, the same tune I played in Buddha's Feet, the same tune that replays in my head... I can't help but wonder what his intentions were, if I could say the words I want to say, I should've already said it straight to his face. 

'Lan Wangji, just what are we now?' (The question WY wants to ask)

I couldn't help it while thinking about him, I blurted out, "Lan Zhan" I acted cool but noticed that I didn't hear the tune anymore, I heard the door close shut instead. Was it because I blurted out his name or was it because the song was finished? 

I got up, still feeling down, I want to learn from my past self how to act cool though I'm hurting so much inside, how can I keep a calm face though my heart's beating louder than it could be. How can I smile when I'm torn inside of me? 

I went out and reminded myself that I'm a ray of bright sunshine who should always shine, and I will fight with the clouds just to keep my brightness shining. "GOOD MORNING!" I gave them my brightest smile, "Lan Zhan, morning. Kids! WAKE-UP!" 

I saw Jingyi yawn, "Someone played a silly game yesterday night and slept late, hmm?" I was just trying to liven up the mood, or my mood. We all ordered breakfast, and Lan Zhan and the two juniors sat with us, just for some reason I felt weird, a lot was on my head. 

{Lan Sizhui POV}

I somehow felt a deja vu, I always sat with Jingyi and Master in the past, is it Mo gongzi? But what's his relationship with my master? I admit that my master's head is quite occupied lately, he sometimes spaces out or just looks at the distance as if there was someone. 

I ask him, "Master, anything clouded in your mind?" I didn't realize that it was quite offensive, but regardless of that the Mo gongzi who had a dark face a while ago smiled brightly, "Haha, how nice it is to read someone's mind, you must've been by each other's side for a long time" 

The air and tension around us were awkward, Jingyi daren't say anything, but soon Master's complexion turned well? Magic? He faced Mo gongzi and asks, "That's why you are Cù" (literally means vinegar, like drinking vinegar means jealous in Chinese) 

I didn't quite get it but Mo gongzi's face looked like he was shocked, but the next moment his face showed a smile, it seemed like it had a deeper meaning. But what is the meaning behind that smile? 

{Lan Wangji's POV}

We ventured to Qinghe while Sizhui and Jingyi were together with Jin Rulan (Jin Ling's birth name) night-hunting nearby. I stopped in my tracks and looked back at him, "Barrier" 

I look around and smell danger, all that was on my mind was to protect Wei Ying. PROTECT. This time, I don't want to fail like how I did 16 years ago, with those hands that left mine. "What is it?" He asks with a straight face, I know he's strong but I just can't help but worry about him. I'm also afraid that if I protect him too much, he'll lose his own pride. Let's just try our best to act like normal. (talking about himself)

"Barrier, Living Dead Corpses" I tried to keep it simple but I can't help but think about what he would be thinking. "The corpses are of the lowest level, let's try not to make much noise or the attention will be diverted to us" I replied to him like that although I knew he knows more about them as he founded it himself. 

"It's great that the children didn't come with us or they'll scream in dear or pass out!" He tried to laugh it off, but I just know that he didn't want Sizhui near me at all, I wonder what he would do when he finds out who Sizhui really is. 

I erased the boring part like the ugly drawing of Yilling Laozu and the dog part, it would definitely feel like I am copying the novel or drama if I followed the same storyline. Thanks for reading, GOOD DAY!