Kook

Nightmares.

Theo Grey POV

Lexi slept over after the bonfire, she had only just gone to sleep. It's been an hour, I sit across the room watching her shuffle and turn.
A pit of guilt hit me, she was struggling to sleep because of the pills, the pills I was giving to her.
My jaw clenched as I look off to the side, I jump when I head Lexi scream.
My gaze shifts to her, she lets out a horrified scream sitting bolt up right on the mattress.

"No- no" she was out of breath, not able to form real sentences.
"Hey it's ok- your ok" I quickly jump to her side, pulling her back into to reality.
"Tim- he's" her voice was barely audible, tears streamed down her cheeks.
My eyes frown as I look at the broken girl, I didn't know who she was taking about? Maybe her friend that died? But she told me last night that she didn't think he was dead.

Her breathing was erratic as she tried to calm herself, she pushed me away scattering on the floor as she picked up her hoodie.
"Lexi wait!" She rushed down the stairs, pulling the hoodie onto her shoulders.
"I can't" she grumbled, she said more but I couldn't make it out.
She storms out the house leaving me alone.
The girl didn't seem right-

Lexi Trent's POV

Putting the hood over my head to cover the light that was hurting my eyes, I make my way back to figure eight.
My teeth chattering as my chest felt heavy, weighing down my body.
My mind wouldn't shut off why wouldn't it stop, it only stopped when I was awake. It's like the people I love always die and it's my fault. That's why they haunt my dreams- my mind, never giving me a rest. I need it all to stop.

Rushing in, pushing the door open I run up stairs, packing a bag and taking a tablet.
As I get to the bottom of the stairs Anne, Kelce and My Dad stood there, in front of the door.
"Where were you? You can't keep doing this! Staying out all night not telling me where you are!" Anne had tears in her eyes as her voice raised making me shiver.

"Get out of my way" I grip the strap of my backpack that was swung over my shoulder.
"No. You weren't ever like this- it's since John b died! You've been behaving like a maniac!" Kelce now spoke, making Anne turn to him.
"Stay out of it Kelce!" She warned her son, my Dad stood there with a disappointed pout.
"Why? Why do you keep doing this Lexi? Why now?" My Dad asked as his arms crossed over his chest.
"What question do you want me to answer first? Do you want me to speak fast? Get it done and over with before you leave again?!" My voice yelled, it cracking as I finish the sentence.

"Leave? Lexi? I've never left you"  stepping forward I realise that I wasn't looking at my Dad but Kelce's.
My breath hitches in my throat, I was going insane. "Move out my way!" I shout louder this time waiting for them to step aside but they didn't dare move.
"Lexi what is going on with you?" Kelce's voice was softer as he stepped forward.
"Me?! What about you! Hanging around with a rapist and a murderer!" I spat, he stepped back with wide eyes.

Anne and Miles (Kelce's Dad) looked confusingly at each other.
"Lexi. Why don't you sit down and talk to us" Miles had a tint on concern in his voice.
"No- no I don't want to do that!" A breathy sob escaped my lips, they weren't listening.
"This isn't you Lexi" Anne tried to put her hand on my arm but I slapped it away making them all jump and gasp at the action.

"You don't know who I am! You never did! This is me! This is who I am, you only saw the poor little orphan girl who's Dad left her and thought 'hey maybe if we take her in, then people will think we're nice people!' You don't know me" I warn them, my face full of rage.
"Ok ok- but we care about you, please come and sit down" Anne's voice was quieter, like she was talking to a five year old with a gun.
"Why won't you listen to me! I'm not sitting down and I am calm!" My heart pounds in my chest as my vision blurred more.

"Lexi-" Kelce stepped forward and my face became terrified, Tim- how.
"No! Your dead! Your all dead!" Tears escaped my eyes as I stumbled back.
"We're all here Lexi! We are al alive! What the hell are you on?" Miles's voice boomed, finally blinking through the tears I see the River family stood there. Kelce, Anne and Miles.
Not Tim, Not my Dad. Not my mother.
"I'm sorry- I" sobs escaped my lips as I rush towards the back door.
They all run towards me, I quickly open the door running out towards the woods behind the house.

"Lexi!" I heard Anne shout with pure worry, I didn't stop running.
I finally collapsed in the woods, I was so tired.
Crying into my knees, I hear a tree branch break. Picking myself up again I go, running as fast as I could.
Not stopping until my legs gave out underneath me.
"Stay awake" I slap my face as my eyes get heavy, groaning as my head tilts back onto the tree.

"Just a few minutes" I whispered to myself, my eyes finally giving in. When I open my eyes again it was dark, the cold air hitting my skin making me shiver.
I started to become scared, being alone in the middle of the woods at night wasn't my idea of fun.
Opening my phone I see at least 30 missed calls and 100 texts from Kelce, Miles and Anne.
I pick myself up walking towards the only place I knew I could stay and be totally safe.

"Hey" I speak softly as he opens the door, he looked confused to see me.
"Lex? What you doing here?" JJ had no shirt on, looked slightly concerned about your presence.
"I need to crash- is that ok?" Biting on the side of my cheek, still gripping my backpack.
"Yeah" he instantly stepped to the side letting me walk into John's.

"I'm sorry about last night" I sit down on the sofa, my head in my hands as he stood there looking confused.
"For what?" He shrugged gently, his voice smooth and comforting.
"Kissing Theo. I don't know why I did that- I just wanted to piss you off and I was drunk so" I started to rant but he cut me off with his voice.
"Well it worked" he nods sucking on his teeth slightly.

"It's just. Since John b and Sarah I feel like I've been going round in circles- going crazy" I gesture to my head with my hand as a light chuckle escapes my lips.
"Your not crazy" he sat down next to me, my eyes felt glassy. Tell him. Tell him about the pills. About the research. Tell him. Tell him.
"Hey you ok?" JJ leaned forward noticing the tears escaping my eyes.

"I can't stop thinking about them. About how people I love die. How am I meant to just ignore that the people that killed him live on forgive eight? That I have to see them because they are 'our family friends' how am I meant to live with that jj?" Biting down on my tongue I stop myself, he would think I was crazy just like everyone else. He'd make me stop my research he wouldn't understand.
"I don't know. I think about it too. How they're walking about all happy while we're here" he took his red cap off shaking his hair slightly as he runs his hand through it.

"I really fucked up with my family" biting on the side of my lip I lean back on the sofa.
"Why? What you do?" He chuckles looking at me, his eyes growing with more worry as I stayed silent.
"I fucked up. Like I always do and now I don't know what's gunna happen" sighing as I stare in front of me, my eyes drying up.
"Lexi I'm sure everything will be fine and if not- we could always just ditch and go live on some fucking island" he started to laugh a little, I join in, my head feeling a little sore.

"Yeah" I nod sniffing as I rub my nose with my hand standing up.
"I can't sleep- it's like my mind won't shut off and when it does-" I couldn't finish my sentence, if I did then I'd have to admit out loud that I have nightmares about Tim, his death, Rafe, killing Peterkin, John b and Sarah dying, that they aren't alive. That al of this was for nothing.
"What happens?" JJ looked up at me, fully listening in.

"I just keep thinking of them that's all" I swallow the pain in my throat and he stands up.
"We can watch a film if you want- until you fall asleep?" My heart sunk a little, I felt more guilty for what I did last night now JJ was being such a good friend to me.
"Yeah I'd like that" smiling gently he grabs the controls and turns the tv on, both of us sitting back of the sofa.
We both sit there next to each other not touching.
He put on some action movie, my body edged closer to his unknowingly.

My eyes felt heavy again, they begged for me to get up and take a pill, I needed to find out more-
They finally shut and I felt myself drift off into a deep sleep.