serotonin

chapter seventeen

dear cass,
decided not to go
to school today btw
(figured i'd tell you after
you called me)
- lauren

dear paulina,
HEHEHEHEHEHE
- lauren

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nothing really happened all month of december. nothing exciting over christmas. except for the fact that laura spent it with us for some reason. i don't see why she had to but dad was happy. i wasn't. which sounds selfish but laura is such a dick. i love dad but i don't get what he sees in her.

my phone chimed on my desk.

unknown : 'you going?'

i pick it up to respond.

me : 'yeah, i'm picking drew up in a bit'

unknown : 'i'll see you there then :)'

i checked the time and realized i should probably get ready to go. i walked over to my closet and looked at myself on the mirror that hung on my door. i pulled out a pair of my light beige pants and put them on. i kept on my white (just a little too big but not so baggy) t-shirt and grabbed what my sister calls my 'sage but beige' hoodie. i don't exactly know what sage is but cass said it's supposed to be some type of green.

i pulled it over my head and grabbed my phone. it was just passed ten o'clock at night but everyone was awake. i walked over to my night side table and opened the drawer. there wasn't much in it, just some old broken headphones and wires that i never threw out, but at the back sat a small red velvet box. i never usually wear it, only on holidays or birthdays and no one ever knows.

i opened up the small box and looked at the silver chain that was held inside. i felt my heart sink when my eyes laid upon the piece of jewelry. it may have been just under a week since i'd worn it but every time i look at it and took it out and closed the box. i closed the drawer and walked over to the mirror that leaned against my wall (yes i have two mirror, i need to constantly look good).

i unclasped the necklace and out it around my neck. i reclasped it, i held the pendant in my hand. it was a small snake. a two-headed, small, silver snake with blue sapphire stones as the eyes. i tucked it away under my shirt and hoodie. the chain wasn't as small as people would think. it was a medium size and technically wasn't deemed 'feminin' but i didn't really want to get bullied for having a chain that held so much value. specifically money and emotionally.

she had gotten it the day after cass and i were born. she figured since we're twins we'd be more like one person and always attached at the hip. which in hindsight she really wasn't wrong. the sapphire eyes were because it's septembers birthstone. all in all it was a really nice necklace.

i look over to a framed photo on my desk and smiled before grabbing my phone and leaving my room "CASS LETS GO" i yelled down the hall "WE NEED TO PICK UP DREW"

"i'm coming" she groaned, closing her bedroom door. she stood dressed in a black over sized t-shirt with a a green dragon on it. her baggy blue jeans just hit the tops of her green, black and white jordan's. her hair was half up and tied back with a clip "let's go little brother"

"two minutes!" i protested as she walked down the stairs in front of me. she looked back "two blissful minutes of peace" she smiled.

we reached the bottom of the stairs, laura and dad were in the living room having a glass red wine. his arm was on the back of the couch, his hand touching her shoulders very slowly. i mentally gagged "we're leaving" i say.

dad turned his head "stay safe, happy new years"

"happy new years" we said in unison and headed towards the door. i pulled on some new white sneakers i had gotten for christmas and grabbed my coat. cass grabbed my keys and unlocked my car "i'm driving home tonight"