Unnoticed love

Chapter 4

I was lying lazily on my bed watching a series when someone called me on the phone.

- Can you believe! I was invited to a conference! Only the most promising doctors are invited there!" Yoohyeon yelled into the phone.

- Coll! And what is the conference about?

- Well, there all sorts of intelligent doctors will give lectures, work. And most importantly, it will be possible to win another grant for education. New methods in pediatrics, narrow-profile areas and a bunch of everything.

- It's so fucking cool! "I was genuinely happy for her.

- Siyeon?" I could tell by her voice that she was frowning amusedly. She always did that when I occasionally couldn't help myself and missed a curse.

- Sorry, but this is really cool.

- Yes! I know!

- When does the conference start?

- Already tomorrow. It will last three days from morning to evening. Therefore, going to the cinema will have to be postponed. But after that we will definitely go.

- Well, good luck there. Go to sleep.

- Okay, good night, kiss you!

I turned off my phone and looked out the window. Kisses. She started talking like that a long time ago. At first I was happy as a child. And then I realized that this is a standard phrase for a telephone farewell to friends. It's been a couple of weeks since her birthday. What happened during this time? Nothing new! I'm still in love. She's also unavailable, although sometimes I think she suspects that I'm crazy about her. Sometimes she allows herself to flirt in my direction. Playful, frivolous, but it seems to blow my head. Handong... is dating Dami. I was shocked when they went on a second date. I was even more shocked when they went to the third one. Fourth, I did not expect. And even more so the fifth. But these two seem to have been found. They see each other every day, and Handong tirelessly told me how amazing Dami was, and that if Yoohyeon was even half the same as Dami, then she wanted me to marry her immediately.

And Bora. My dear Bora. She returned from her business trip. She was so glad to see me, and I hided my eyes and did not know where to look. Yes, we didn't do any of that. I didn't even kiss Yoohyeon, I just thought about her, even when I was next to Bora. It was shameful and unpleasant, but along with the realization there was powerlessness. Bora is a very smart woman. She realized that I was pulling away, but did not say anything. She didn't complain, she didn't reproach. I thank her for this.

And all I did was to live from a telephone conversation to a meeting. So those three days of the fucking conference felt like an eternity. Yoohyeon called me every evening, but her voice was so tired that it took her 5 minutes to ask how I was doing, and she went to bed. I was on pins and needles. I felt the need for her. I missed her. It was as if everything was wrong, the sun was shining wrong, the grass was not like that, the birds were chirping somehow stupidly. I stayed up late at work, which shocked both Bora and colleagues. And I just needed time to past faster.

Finally, the conference came to an end, Yoohyeon, called and in a mysterious voice invited me to her place, telling me to bring a bottle of wine. Yoohyeon and wine? So there is a reason. Well, maybe there will be a moment to confess to her? I must admit that I can't live without her. That I love her. That I dream of falling asleep with her, watching stupid movies in my arms and throwing popcorn. I decided that I should tell her this and let her decide. I also decided to avoid conversations where she could find out about the dirt in which I once lived. She don't need to know about it. She deserves better. With her around, I get better. Even Handong noticed it.