Unnoticed love

Chapter 14

For a week I thought about Handong's words. I circled the room, trying to gather my thoughts together. Bora. Yoohyeon. Yoohyeon. Bora. Did I love Yoohyeon? Yes, of course, I had feelings for her. They overwhelmed me when we met. Did I love Bora? I could not clearly answer this question, because I had a whole gamut of emotions for Bora, which were mixed up. She was so meaningful to me that I struggled to understand exactly how I felt about her. I scrolled everything in my head, and our conversations, and meetings, and relationships, if they could be called that, but did not find an answer. Until I thought about how I would feel if Bora one day took and introduced me to some girl whom she would introduce as her chosen one. Even from the theoretical presentation of this situation, I felt an unpleasant sensation. A prick of jealousy, or something. I never saw Bora with anyone and I didn't ask her and didn't think about it. And were there any? Someone other than me? Is there anyone now? Does she sleep with someone? Is she cooking for someone ? Waiting for someone from work? I felt sick. I got so used to Bora, to her presence, that I took it as an addition. Just like it should be. But I didn't think about what was going on in Bora's life.

I knew she would always be by my side and I didn't even think about how she felt about me, her pain.

I sat down on the kitchen floor and leaned my head against the wall. Damn I'm so selfish. All this time she was there, and I didn't know where I was looking. Anywhere, but not on her. I realized that I needed to talk to her. Find out everything, explain. And now I'm ready to be with her, to give her my heart.

I want Bora to be just with me, and not with anyone else.

I grabbed the phone, but it immediately chimed. Bora was calling me. I happily grabbed the phone.

- Babe?" I blurted out, completely without thinking that I had not called her that for a very long time. Since Yoohyeon appeared.

Bora, apparently, was also very surprised, because she did not answer right away. After a few seconds I heard:

- Hi. I'm calling to say that tomorrow, or rather, today, I'm flying away on a business trip. I'll be gone for a week or two. We will see how quickly we will shoot the material.

- Tomorrow or today?" I decided to clarify. I have to talk to her.

- I'm leaving today, and we start filming tomorrow.

- Soon? Your plane is soon?

- In four hours. I'm already packed, a taxi will come soon.

- Why didn't you tell me before?!" I was indignant, as all my plans collapsed. I don'd want her to leave now. Not now. Not today.

- I didn't mean to, but my worker got sick and I have to go. There is a whole series of commercials, I need to make sure that everything goes smoothly," Bora said, even if she was surprised at my tone, she did not show it.

- Shit. Let me take you. Cancel the car. I need to talk to you" I realized that I could not stand a week or two, tormented by the unknown.

- GOOD. I will cancel. Something happened?" Bora asked carefully.

- Yes. I mean, no. Never-mind. I'll explain when we will meet, "I threw and turned off the phone, running to get ready.

Bora left the house, and I just dropped my jaw somewhere under the steering wheel. No one will ever say that this woman is 36. A strict black suit looked great on a slender figure. The skirt just above the knees perfectly fitted the elastic hips, and the jacket emphasized both the thin waist and the beautiful chest.

- Let's go?" Bora looked at me expectantly while I came to my senses.

- What? Ah, yes, yes, we're going," I came to my senses and started the car.