It’s easy to forget where you came from. It’s easier to forget where you’re going. Things can become unfocused, life can be become routine and comfortable. It’s rare that things can change in a few instances, but it does happen, and when it does happen it’s up to those affected to decide if it’ll change for better or for worse.
Hyunjung, along with the rest of the girls, started a life of cameras, videos, paparazzi, glamour, and music years ago. Things began to change then, but she doesn’t know, even know whether that change was good or not.
“Seola, you need to get ready to go, we’ve got to be at the stage in twenty!” , her manager yells out at her through her door. The girls are still together, but fame has gone and affected everyone around them. Hyunjung plays her part and sings her lines, but she feels empty most nights. The other girls find it hard to see their family’s and even harder for them to find their privacy. They wanted the fame, they asked for the glamour, but even Starship, who became like a home to them all, couldn’t protect them from the prying eyes of the world at bay.
When she does get a moment away from the hectic schedule that her managers flood her with she escapes to the small home she bought out in Jeju island last year. It’s become her favorite place to go too and she’s finally gotten her manager to allow her the next week off so she can retreat there.
Her dad’s still very much a part of her life, as is her mom and sibling, but they don’t really understand what she stepped into. She buys them whatever they need and she’s remained responsible, but it’s getting harder and harder to give interviews and to perform every other day. She doesn’t know if she’s the only one who feels this way in the group, but she knows that the girls have grown farther apart. It seemed impossible back then because they stayed together every minute of every day.
She’s barely able to catch up with Eunseo and Soobin. She finds more out from dispatch than she does from the girls. Things have just fallen this way and Hyunjung despises it more than anything else. Those girls are her family. Hyunjung’s proud of what she’s become and even more proud of her family, but she’s tired. She’s exhausted and burnt out. She grabs her iPhone and walks out to join her manager in the black SVU.
“Finally, the girls are all on their way. You’ve got this show and another interview an hour afterwards and then you can head out.” the manager says it as he types away on her phone, Hyunjung has no doubt that it’s probably a work email. Their managers are all workaholics. Hyunjung doesn’t quite understand it because his kind and he’s got a family, but he’s rarely with them. Hyunjung would spend as much time as she could if she had one. She really wants a family.
“Okay, let’s just get this over with. Do you know if the other girls are off next week too?” Hyunjung lays her head against the window and closes her eyes as she speaks.
“I know that Jiyeon is to go visit her family, but the rest have other things. Luda might be as well.” the manager's brown eyes take in Hyunjung’s tired frame. he’s sorry about all that she sets up for Hyunjung, but he’s just the messenger.
“Thanks.”
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“That’s was beyond tiring.” Eunseo says as she walks off stage first. The mics turned off and the stage crew running around trying to change for the next artist. Eunseo doesn’t actually know what or who this event is for, but she’s tired and the ten of them have an interview in an hour somewhere across town.
“I’m glad next week is going to be a breeze.” Soobin says softly behind her.
“You guys are off too?” Jiyeon says as she sits down next to Yeoreum and Sojung in their dressing room and begins to change.
