Awakened

5. God...look at you

 As you walked through the station out to Lee's cruiser you could feel the stares burning into you, hushed whispers following you out the door. You tried to keep your head high, reminding yourself there would be something else to talk about soon enough. Davey shot you a friendly smile and a wave as you passed him, which you were grateful for.

"What were they saying?" you asked Lee sheepishly as he backed out of the lot, one hand on the steering wheel and one against the back of your seat. You were in the front now you were a passenger rather than a criminal. You kept glancing out of the windshield at the bonnet of the cruiser, remembering the feel of the warm metal against your thighs.

"Who?" he asked innocently, keeping his eyes on the road.

"You know who" you mumbled.

Lee sighed. "Well. They're happy to have new gossip, of course. And yeah they are pretty shocked. But mainly they think you've had a hard time after your husband's passin' and this is something to do with still dealin' with all o'that".

You nod. They weren't wrong, really. 

You were both silent for a while as Lee drove out of town and headed towards your house. The air in the car was thick with a type of weird tension that made you feel uncomfortable.

"At least they don't know everythin', huh?" he joked.

You knew Lee was just trying to lighten the mood, but you feel so sick thinking about what it would be like if they all knew that you can't even make a joke of it. You don't respond.

"Are we just not gonna mention it ever again then?" Lee asked. "Gotta say hon', it's like I met a different girl out there in the woods".

You shuffle in your seat, visibly uncomfortable and unable to look at him. It was almost as if he sounded anxious, which you'd never seen from him in the slightest all the times you'd ever spoken to him. 

"I guess I just...I don't want you to think I do stuff like that all the time, with men. I mean" you started.

Lee nods. He was anxious. You were all over him like a rash earlier, fucking him with wild abandon like it was the last days of Rome, but now you could barely look at him. He had whiplash from the change in you.

"I just...I know you probably think I'm just some whore..but-".

The slam of the brakes interrupts you as Lee suddenly pulls over to the side of the road.

"Lee wha-?"

He puts the car in park and turns to you. "I don't think that. I would never think that. Look at me." he tells you firmly. His tone so earnest that you nearly laugh.

You are taken aback by his intensity, slowly turning to face him. "I'm sorry Lee-"

"I know whores, darlin'. Trust me. So I know you ain't one".

"I just..." you try to think of the right words. "I know I was forward. But I just need you to know I don't normally do stuff like that, alright? You're the first man I've been with since Arthur, and only the second man in my life I've ever been with fully." You surprise yourself with your honesty, you hadn't realised you were going to be so open until it happened.

He nodded. His cock twitched in his pants at that. He liked the idea of you waiting for him. He knew the other men in the town wanted to see what was under your dress and liked that you had denied all of them except him. Lee was no stranger to loose women, and he knew that wasn't you.

"So...why me, hon?" he asked thoughtfully, his hand brushing your thigh. His touch felt like hundreds of volts of electricity shooting through your entire body.