Awakened

13. Please just go

Lee laughed sardonically as he wiped himself down.

"What do you mean we're done?" he glowered, putting his clothes back on.

"I mean we're over, Lee. Done. I can't be with a killer" you told him firmly.

Lee stopped in his tracks, staring at you in disbelief.

"You literally just rode my mouth on your kitchen table an' came all over my face, and now you want me out?"

You nodded. "Yes".

Lee shook his head. "You're a fuckin' fruitcake, you know that?" he spat.

You bristled slightly at his words, but held his stare.

"Yeah? Is that what you think?" you asked.

"I do" Lee fired back, his eyes ablaze with anger and the large quantity of whiskey he'd had with dinner.

"You don't know what the fuck you want, honey. You're all over the place. You want me to think you're this quiet little good girl but then you wanna guzzle my cum and have me fuck the shit outta you in public".

You grimaced, bracing yourself.

"And like I said. I don't regret what I did. And you don't either, based on what you were mutterin' to me up on the table, getting off on talkin' bout it. You like that I got rid of him and you're glad that I did".

You flinched, the truth of his words causing shame to redden your face.

"And you're too scared to do anythin' cos you're worried about what the strangers in this town will say about it. You act like you're tough and above it all but you're just a scared little girl. It's pathetic".

He was getting in your face now, you could smell the alcohol on his breath. But all he was doing was reigniting your own anger.

"Yeah? Well you're a fuckin' brute, Lee" you shouted back at him. "And you lied to me. You took me on dates and acted all normal while you had this big secret hanging over you like it was no big deal".

You couldn't stop now.

"You solve everything with force and violence like a cave man. You wanna talk about what the town think? How about you acting like the heroic community sheriff for them but really you're a drunk putting bullet holes in your co-workers and fucking whores over at Tecumseh? Imagine if they all knew. What would that do for your re-election chances, huh?"

His jaw ticked and you watched as his face turned to disgust and revulsion. He'd never looked at you quite like that before.

Lee grimaced. He was hurt because he knew you were right, and he wanted to make you feel like he did.

"Why would I need a whore in Tecumseh when I have one right here?" he whispered, raising his palms out defensively.

You staggered back as if you'd been struck, your face screwing up in pain. 

He looked taken aback for a moment as if he was surprised by his own words.

"Wait honey, I-"

He regretted it instantly. He knew that was your insecurity and he used it against you in the heat of the moment. He didn't even mean it.

"No, you said what you said" you snarled. "Good to know how you really see me, Lee. Truth is finally out".

"And it's good to know how you really see me" he countered.

You hesitated. You didn't really think all that about him. You just said it in the moment because he hurt you and you wanted to hurt him.

But it was too late now. Words were like toothpaste, you can't put it back in the tube once you've squeezed it out.