I Dream of Black Roses

Chapter 4

I wake up and get on the bus, of course I sit with Ethan and we talk all the way there. When we get to school we go to our first classes. At lunch we are sitting at the "freak table" when Ashley and her friends walk over to us. I roll my eyes and stand up facing her.
"You know, your not cool just because you stood up to me" she says scowling at me and the other people at the "freak table"
"I never said I was" I smirk at her making her even more mad
"You didn't have to" she says shoving me back
"Why are you so mean? What did I ever do to you?"
"You exist" she says punching my in the face
I put my hand up to my mouth and then look at it, my hand is covered in blood. I look up at her and spit in her face. She grabs the front of my shirt and punches me in the face four or five more times. I fall the floor and start to cry. Her other friends grab Ethan and start beating him up too.
"Stop, he didn't do anything" I say quietly
Everyone is staring over at us now and I feel really embarrassed. A teacher runs over and gets them away from Ethan who is now curled up and bleeding on the floor. I look over at him and start to cry even more.
We go to the nurse and get sent home. I am not as upset about them beating me up as I am about them beating up Ethan, he didn't do anything to them, I was the one that got him into this, maybe I just should leave him alone because I don't want to mess up his life more than I already have. I decide to text him and talk to about what happened.
"Hey..." I say unsure if he will even reply
"Hey..." He says in kind of a sad way, I know I can't actually tell what his emotion is but I know that he is sad
"I'm sorry that I got you into this" I say hoping he doesn't hate me
"Just...meet me at the tree in ten minutes"
"Okay"
I put on my sweatshirt and my shoes. I walk down the street and towards the park. I head into the woods and find him standing at the tree.
"Your late" he says leaning against the tree
"Sorry" I say quietly "do you hate me"
"Other than the fact that I have a black eye because of you, no I don't hate you" he says chuckling
"Well, it was fun having you as a friend but I don't think I should hang out with you anymore" I say tearing up
"Why? I told you I don't hate you"
"But I don't want to ruin your life"
He walks towards me and wraps his arms around me. I pull away from him and turn to face the entrance to the actual park.
"I'm sorry, I just...I don't want to hurt you" I say through my tears
"I'm not afraid of being hurt" he says walking over to me again
"You say until it actually happens, I'm sorry, I care about you to much" I say running towards the front of the woods and into the park. I go home and stay in my room for the rest of the night. I hate myself for doing this to him. He doesn't realize that I'm a terrible person and I don't want him to realize it. I will just distance myself from him for a while and he can eventually find someone else to care about, someone who won't ruin his life.