I Dream of Black Roses

Chapter 5

I walk to school in the rain that day. The entire walk there I can't tell if it's raindrops or tears on my face. I get there and go to my locker to grab my stuff for my first classes. I sit through all of them staring out the window and thinking about Ethan. I can't blame him if he doesn't care anymore, first he got beat up because of me and then I ran from him instead of talking about what happened.
After my first few classes I start walking towards the cafeteria but then turn around and go into the bathroom. I stay in there the entire lunch period and sit on the cold tile floor. I'm not that hungry anyway, I'm never really hungry.
I go to my last classes and stay after school. I don't have anything to do there, I just don't want to go home. I sit in the empty cafeteria and tap a pencil on the table until the janitor tells me I have to leave. I walk home in the rain and stare at the ground. I walk through the front door and go upstairs. Ethan is sitting on the edge of my bed when I walk in. He looks up and smiles at me.
"You know, I'm not just going to forget about you" he says standing up
I turn around and run down the stairs. He runs after me, yelling my name. I run out the front door and down the street. I run into an alley between the pharmacy and the post office. I sit on the ground and cry as I watch the water drain from the end of the gutter. I don't know why he won't just leave me alone, I told him why I don't want anything to do with him. It starts to get dark outside so I head home, hoping that he isn't still there. I walk up to my room and he has left, but he forgot his sweatshirt on my bed. I pick it up and hold it close to me. I go to sleep after hanging his sweatshirt on the back of my door. I hope I don't wake up tomorrow morning. I can just sleep the wrest of my life away.