It been three days since Ethan got out of the hospital and I go to his house every day to make sure he is alright. He has to go to therapy every week now and in all honestly I think it's making him worse. It's crazy that I've only known him for a little over a year and yet I feel like he is one of the most important things to me. He doesn't talk much anymore and when he does it's usually just one word answers. I arrive at his house and walk in, considering it's like a second home to me I don't knock anymore. I go up to his room and he is sitting on his bed with his face buried in a book.
"Hey, you feeling okay?" I say sitting next to him. I don't ask him if he is feeling good or better anymore because he always says that he doesn't think things will ever get better or will never be good again.
"Sure" He says still looking at his book.
"Even if you don't believe it, things will get better" I say looking at him, hoping he will say more than one word.
"Okay"
"You know I love you right?"
He looks up at me and shyly smiles a little. "I love you too"
I lean over and hug him tightly. I never actually thought that hearing someone talk could make me so happy. I'm just very relieved that he finally answered me with make than a word.
"I'm never going to leave you, I'm going to stay here and irritate you forever" I say still hugging him
He pulls away from the hug and looks into my eyes. He kisses me and then smiles like he is scared to be happy. "I wish I could say the same..." He says looking at his book again.
"I won't be mad if you leave, sure I'll be sad, but I won't be mad because I know it's not your fault" I say taking his hand in mine.
"Then who's fault is it?" He says but not looking up at me.
"I don't know....mine maybe?..." I mumble as I look around the room
"It's not your fault, not at all, you are perfect and you could never do anything to hurt anyone" he mumbles back as he lightly squeezes my hand.
"Sorry to rain on your parade, but I'm far from perfect, worthless is the right word, but not perfect" I say looking at the floor, trying to avoid eye contact to prevent myself from bursting into tears.
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I Dream of Black Roses
Romance"I will hide in that dark corner of your heart, even if your not here with me" We are all a little crazy, we have to be crazy with someone else though. If the person you care about leaves you, don't blame them, they might have left because they care...
