To The Sky

Chapter 16

"Get the fuck up asshole."

I groan turning over my fucking head pounding. I don't even attempt to wake up.

"Fucking hell Mason get up before I drag you out of this bed"

The damn voice is even louder. I lift my hand just high enough so they can see the bird I'm giving them.

"Wake the fuck up"

The assholes drag my sheets off before dumping ice cold water on me. I sit up fast cursing as I do my head splitting in pain.

"Jesus fuckers I'm up." I grumble my throat scratchy and my mouth dry as hell.

"You have to be the stupidest mother fucker on the planet" Cole says eyeing me up and down.

I watch through my narrowed eyelashes as he hands me a bottle water and Liam paces with agitation.

"I know. I can't believe I went all that time with Kennedy not wrapping up. Fuck I might be a dad."

The sneer Cole gives me and the now stillness Liam has adopted tells me that is not why he was calling me stupid.

"She's gone because of your dumb ass" Liam growls suddenly in my face.

"Who's gone. Kennedy, good fucking riddance. That bitch has been sitting on my balls for the last fe-" I get cut off again this time by Jackson.

"No you numb nuts. Sawyer is gone. Packed her shit yesterday and left."

His words send a shooting pain through me. Fuck.

My whole body hurts when I recall what happened yesterday. The worry in her eyes when she asked me if I was okay. The hurt that took over when I ignored her. Oh jesus. Kennedy was here. Sawyer knows she's pregnant.

I run my hand through my hair pulling on it despite the throbbing pain in my temples.

"Fuck she ran because of the baby. Fucking Kennedy." I rasp out teeth clenched trying to control my anger.

Cole just laughs. "Nah man she left because you were a dick to her."

I look at him inquisitively.

He shakes his head.

" I called her and she told us what you said. Man you are real fucked up to treat her that way." Liam scolds me like I'm a child.

I sit up groaning, ignoring their yammering as I make my way down to the living room, snatching a bottle of some sort of brown liquor before plopping down. Before I even have a chance to sip at it Jackson has yanked it out of my hands.

"What the fuck man. I wanted to drink that"

"Fuck no. I've let this go on for too long. You pushed away and honestly fucking broke the best woman to ever walk into your life. Along with that she's sitting alone thinking you cheated on her because Kennedy fucking lied to her." Jackson sinks down next to me.

I rub my chest. I don't remember talking to her yesterday. The moment Kennedy got here I downed almost the rest of the bottle I had started on. I was so fucked I couldn't even tell you what Kennedy wanted.

I groan "What did I do man. My whole chest hurts not knowing."

Cole Scoffs, while Liam grimaces.

Jackson clears his throat. "After telling us that Kennedy told her she was only two months along, she said she confronted you about it and you.." He trails off looking at the other two.

"Fuck. What the hell did I say."

Cole gets up and walks out of the room disgust plastered all over his face.

"I'll fucking tell you. You told that sweet girl that she was selfish. That she made it all about her. You called her damaged and a spoiled bitch who was making it about her bratty self."

I suck air through my teeth even though I can tell by Liams clenched jaw he isn't finished yet.

"You told Sawyer you wished you never met her. Or that you never found her in that room essentially leading her to believe you wanted her to be harmed and that you wish you never fell in love with her." He finishes leaving Me and Jackson alone as he marches out the door.

My whole world fucking shatters. I had said all of that to her. I don't even remember that, but that's not true. As I sit here I can slowly remember it. All those vile words coming from me. That look on her face. She had started off angry and then her eyes flared and I could see the pain I was causing her. I broke my girl. In return she left me. I deserved that. I deserve to be left to wallow.

I feel the couch shift beside me.

"Look you can't change the pass but you can change the future so what are you going to do?" Cole ask me.

All I could do was shake my head. I don't even know where she is or how to begin to fix this. Sawyer had been through so much the last thing she needed was her heart broken, but I had done that. I had ripped her apart. I fucking hate myself right now and I know my best friends can feel it.

"She didn't deserve the way you treated her but you can fix this. You just gotta be willing to do it." Jackson bumps my shoulder.

"How man. How am I suppose to fix it. I don't know where she is. If she's safe or okay, physically I mean." I bury my head in my hands trying to calm my anxiety and keep tears at bay.

"You lean on your friends, you stop drinking and being a fucking asshole." I heard Liams sarcastic voice.

I look up at him and he has a smirk in place.

"We got you man. Lets get our girl-" I growl cutting Liam off, making him raise his hands "I mean your girl back Mason."