Tainted Series # 8 : The Billionaire's Wife (TRISTAN ANGELO GONZALES)

Chapter 4

Dear Ezra Monique, my budding family lawyer,

I know you have a lot of emotions running through you the time you will be reading this letter. The same feeling I felt when your lolo died, but I was much older at the time that I I know life is like this. Life happens and so is death, so I really can't begin to truly comprehend what you are feeling, apo.

 Ezra,  want to tell you that I am so incredibly sorry that I had to die while you are so young. I did absolutely everything I could to stay alive for as long as possible. But my battle has to end here. I wish I could extend more because I really want to see you reach your dream. I want to see my Ezra Monique in the court room defending her clients, fighting a battle that a good lawyer does.

I am incredibly proud of you for everything you have done in your  life. I will be watching over you every day to see what new and exciting things you will accomplish. I will be watching over you all the time, or at least I hope I can still let you feel that I'm always by your side. That you are never alone. 

Please promise me that you will continue to live your life that way you wanted it to be, even if I'm gone. Follow your dreams my baby love. Start loving yourself, Ezra, because that is what you deserve. Always remember what I always tell you,  value yourself when no one does. You are the captain of your own ship, you are the pilot of your own plane, you are the queen of your own kingdom. You are what you are now because you made it all possible, you worked hard for it.

 Lola Raquel is so proud of you, my Ezra Monique. I will continue cheering you from above. I will be your angel watching over you. Fly high, Ezra. You are and will always be my favorite granddaughter. I will miss you forever.   

Till we see each other again.

Love,

Lola Raquel

I wiped my tears and turned off my phone after reading Lola Raquel's letter to me. I took a photo of it so that every time I misses her I will just open my phone and read it. It's the nth time I've been reading this letter she left me before she died, but still the same emotion was there every damn time I'm reading it. It's been  months but the pain of losing her is still there. 

Itong sulat at gitara lang ang naiwang alaala ni Lola sa akin. 

"You're crying again?" I didn't say anything I just smiled at Beth when she sat at the sun lounger next to me. 

"Kanina pa kita hinahanap, dito ka lang pala. Bakit mo naman pinatay ang phone mo?"

Oh I forgot to tell her pala na andito ako sa pool. "I thought you wanna have your afternoon nap kaya hindi na kita dinisturbo." tipid kong sagot sa kanya. 

Galing na ako sa beach kanina. Naligo akong mag-isa gusto kong pagurin ang aking sarili para mamayang gabi diritso na ako sa pagtulog. Simula ng dumating ako dito sa Pilipinas walang araw na nanatili ako sa mansion. Gaya na lang ngayon.

I'm still hurt from the way my family welcomed me. I don't need a grand welcome but I think I don't deserve that one also. Hindi ko naman ginustong umuwi dito sa Pilipinas. Kung ayaw pala nila sa akin na nandito ako bakit pa nila ako pinapauwi?

It's been a week since I'm here in the Philippines and that same day umalis din ako sa mansion. Two days after dumating din si Bethany mula states at siya ang kasa-kasama ko ngayon. 

"What's your plan now? Are you staying?"

Isa pa yan sa mga pino-problema ko. Until now I don't have plan. Wala, parang biglang nablangko ang utak ko na hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong gawin.