Loving Nicky

Chapter Six: it all went down the toilet

Chapter Six: It all went down the toilet

Nicky's Point of View

"How did your date go?" Sage cheers as I walk in our apartment. I walk into the living room and see Angel and Sage on the couch. Little is sitting in Angel's lap but as soon as he sees me, Little comes and rubs my legs. I pet Little as I say: "The most amazing date I have ever been on." I beam.

"Details!" Angel cheers while taking a sip of her red wine. Both Angel and Sage are in their pj's with their hair in messy buns. I tell them I have to go get in my pj's before I explain all the date. I change into my comfy shorts with pockets and a sweatshirt.

I walk back in the living room, sit down in the seat across from Angel and Sage. I say: "I had the most amazing time. He's kind, sweet, funny. He wanted to learn so much about me. We both have parents who are alcoholics. He bought me the whole series of A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas." I beam.

"Wow he sounds pretty amazing." Sage smiles back at me taking a sip of her wine.

"He was and the best part is tomorrow he is taking me to some surprise." I smirk.

"What kind of surprise?" Angel asks while Little leaves Angel's lap and Little comes and sits on me. I pet him and say: "He won't tell me."

"That makes it even better!" Sage cheers and Angel nods in agreement.

"And the kiss he gave me was the most amazing kiss I have had in my whole life!" I beam.

"Details!" They both cheer.

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I spent the next three hours talking to Sage and Angel about Luke. They both can't wait to meet him and honestly, I can't wait for him to meet them. He is so sweet, kind, and amazing. I feel happy with him.

Sage then tells Angel and me how her date went with Emma, her girlfriend. Sage said that Emma is the love of her life. Sage has been dating Emma for almost two years. I have met Emma and I really like her. Emma makes Sage happy, so I am happy for her.

Angel tells me that she has a crush on my teacher best friend Paige. Angel and Sage have been flirting a lot. So hopefully I can ask Paige on Monday during work about if she likes her. Sage, Angel, and I all agree that she is probably gay or bisexual. So hopefully Angel and Paige will date. But mostly I just want Angel and Sage to be happy with or without a partner.

I roll over in my bed to look at the clock, and see it's 12:00 a.m. I cry and then pain hits my stomach out of no where. It feels like knifes are stabbing into my stomach.

I start to feel nauseated.

Oh my gosh, I am going to be sick.

I jump out of my bed and run to go throw up in the toilet. But I don't throw up. I just feel so sick.

Oh my gosh I hate this.

I know why I almost through up was because I ate so much at dinner tonight with Luke. Gosh, how could I be so stupid to eat so much? I barely ate two meals a day and today I had three. It always makes me sick when I eat and after.

I stand up off the bathroom floor and look in the mirror.

I stare back at myself and see how ugly I look.

You are so fat.  Why do you even eat? You deserve to die. Who do you think you are eating that much. You need to throw it up right now.

I run back over to the toilet and try to throw up.

You stupid, worthless, ugly, piece of trash. No one loves you. No one cares for you. You would be better off dead. So just kill yourself, no one will miss you. You are nothing. You deserve to die. You are such a coward.

I run into my bedroom and scream into my pillow.

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