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Chapter 3 - Reminiscing past Feeling's 2

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When i reached my apartment i immediately locked myself up in my room, i couldn't believe i did that in front of him

I'm so angry at myself and everything right now i just don't know what to do about it, i didn't expect I'd see his so suddenly and i even cried in front of him

I felt so embarrassed i even walked away without saying anything and i just blacked out i couldn't process my feeling's because i was feeling anxious mixed emotions

Feeling so lost in that conversation all though it was short and unexpected i couldn't break the hatred and anger i felt when i saw him

But mostly i was just too helpless facing him because i wasn't good at showing emotions and all i could do was cry

I throw myself at the bed and released a deep sight as i stared at the ceiling emptily my room was so dark just like how my life was when we broke up

He suddenly asked me to break up and i was so lost if i did something wrong, he didn't even explain why and left me in the air

I felt the tears again started to fall down from my eyes as my sight turned hazy, staring at the ceiling i felt an aching sensation in my chest

It felt so heavy and painful and my feeling has never been clearer to me sinve i saw his face everything came pouring back on me, all of a sudden i started to fall apart again

It's never been clearer, i felt so heavy with all the mixed emotions i couldn't sort out how to feel or react and all i could do was cry and cry

Crying has been my habit whenever i feel like this, my pillows and blankets are all witnesses on how much tears i spilled

I was again lost in my emotions and couldn't figure out how to calm myself dowm

And maybe i got tired from all that crying that suddenly without noticing i fell asleep in my bed without taking my shoes off

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When Lee know Hyung and i started dating after i confessed to him, we started hanging out more often and that time too we kept our relationship a secret

Our university was a bit strict and so was our parents and just like what any teen agers would do we kept our relationship a secret

It wasn't that bad since we we're friends for a long time and no one thought of hints because we we're usually close with each other

And it's very advantageous for us because we we're both guy's so no one suspected a thing, but we still try to be cautious and very careful because we didn't want to be found out

Sometimes we'd talk how we're going to tell our parents but we didn't really took the matter seriously because you know? Teenagers... We weren't ready to face the world and it's judgment

It's the most serious part of us being in a relationship but as long as we weren't at the point where we have to tell our parents we kept silent

Remi is also our female childhood friend, actually she was my childhood friend first before we met Lee know hyung

She's very clingy and sweet to me, i feel like she's my sister though we didn't tell her too that we're dating because we don't know how she'll react

She has this personality where she blabbers things without thinking so we got worried she might tell someone something about us so we didn't tell her either