The forbidden love

I like when you kiss me like that

"Next week?" I repeated in a whisper as my eyes filled up with tears. "I guess I'm going with you then" I said. "No y/n" She said softly and rubbed her thumb against my cheek. "Well if I can't stop you from going, then I'll just have to go with you" I shrugged. "You can't stop me either" I said and wiped my tears away before she saw them. "I will do whatever can to make sure you don't step foot out of this manor. I'll have restraints holding you to this bed if I have to" She said.

"Bella, if you do not come home from this battle, I will never forgive you" I said, my body starting to shake a little. "Why do you insist I'm going to die, why can't you just believe in me, in us?" She asked. "And who the fuck is us?" I asked. "The dark lord and his army, us" she said. "Bella, the chances of you winning, are very low, and let's say you don't die, you then instead go to Azkaban" I said.

"Come on love, let's go to sleep" Bella sighed. I huffed and laid down on the bed, pulling the covers over me and facing my back towards Bella's side of the bed. Bella sighed again and put her arm over my waist. Tears started to well up in my eyes. This isn't going to end well.

"The house! Molly!" I yelled. The Weasley house was on fire. Molly loved her house, and it's my fault. "Where's Y/n?" Mr. Weasley asked. Molly ran into the house. "No! Molly I'm right here!" I yelled. I tried to run to her but I couldn't move. I was in the tall grass that surrounded the house, but I couldn't get out. "Molly!" I cried.

"Y/n!" I heard Molly yell. Mr.Weasley went in after Molly. "Y/n!" She yelled again. All i could do was cry and scream, I couldn't leave the grass.
"Y/n!" Bella yelled trying to shake me awake. I sat up hyperventilating, tears streaming down my face. "The house is burning, Molly! Mollys inside" I yelled. "Y/n" Bella said calmly and put her hands on my shoulders. "The house isn't burning, everyone is fine" Bella said. "No! They- Molly went in to get me, and-" "No Y/n, that didn't happen-" Bella started but I cut her off.

"It was my fault! It was all my fault!" I said and put my hands in my face. "How is it your fault?" She asked. "If i wasn't there their house wouldn't have burned down" I cried. "Y/n, it's not your fault, I- I didn't know you were even in that house, so it's not even your fault" She said.

I finally calmed down, I still feel it's my fault, and I'm still upset that she set the house on fire, but I don't know what I expect from her, she is a death eater after all.

"Come on, go back to bed" Bella whispered. She slowly laid me back down. I couldn't fall back asleep though, I wasn't even tired, and it was still dark outside. I decided to take a walk around the manor. Preferably the kitchen. So I made my way down the stairs and into the kitchen. I was kind of hungry so I got some chips, but as I reached in the cupboard for them I saw a bottle of brown liquid, some kind of alcohol I'm not really sure what kind, suppose it's whiskey.

So I grabbed the bottle and the chips and went to the living room and sat on the couch. I ate a couple chips but I wasn't really hungry anymore, I did drink the whiskey. Disgusting but it felt good burning down my throat. I looked at the time, it was 5am. Merlin. I'm never up this early. I felt my body start to tingle, meaning I had a little buzz. A few seconds later I heard someone coming down the stairs.

"Y/n? What are you doing?" Bella asked. "What's it look like I'm doing" I said and waved the bottle around. "Are you drunk?" She asked. "No unfortunately not" I replied. "Well why don't you put that down and come back to bed, it's too early for this" she said and came closer to me. "Why not start my day drinking early" I said and took another sip. "Y/n" Bella scoffed. "Bella" I whispered. "What's wrong?" She asked carefully and sat down and put my legs over her lap. "Nothing, I just couldn't sleep" I said.

"I'm sorry" Bella said and caressed my legs. I hummed in response. I took a big swallow of the whiskey, feeling my body tingle more. "Can you stop drinking that?" Bella huffed. "Why?" I asked. She just shook her head.

Before I even realized, I was drunk. Not a whole lot, but enough. "Why are you staring at me like that?" Bella asked. I didn't even realize I was staring at her. I started giggling at myself. "Oh lord" She rolled her eyes. "What?" I asked and then kept laughing again. "You're drunk" she said. "No I'm not" I said and stopped laughing. I sat up and looked at her again. I looked at her deeply as she looked at me confused.

"What are you doing freak" she said and smirked while poking my sides. I leaned in and kissed her. She smiled into the kiss, and it made me dizzy. "You get on my nerves" She said and kissed me again. I straddled her lap and put my hands in her hair. She giggled "what are you doing?" "Kissing you" I stated the obvious. I moved to kiss along her jaw, she closed her eyes and leaned her head to the side. I went further down to her neck making purple bruises that she'll scold me for later.

Then I went back to her lips. I started laughing again at I don't even know what. "What's so funny?" She asked. "I don't know" I said as I laughed. "I love you" I said as I looked at her, deeply into her eyes. "I love you too" She smiled. "I think we need to get you back to bed" She whispered. "No, I don't want to go back in there" I whined. "And why not?" She asked. "Why do you want to go back in there?" I asked and smirked. "Well I was going to put you back to bed, dirty mind" she said. "We could just stay here on the couch, by the fire" I said and pushed her gently on her back.

"We're not doing this on my sisters couch" she said. "Well you haven't gotten back up yet" I smirked and leaned down to kiss her again. "I love it when you kiss me like that" she whispered out of breath. "Like what?" I asked as I pecked her lips a few more times. She didn't answer, she just pulled me into another kiss. "Like what?" I asked again. "Like you mean it" she said. "I always mean it?" I said and sat up.

"There's a certain way you do it, I like it when you do it out of the blue, but not just a peck, and it's not sex filled, or you trying to turn me on, I can feel you just want to kiss me, and that's all you want, your not trying to start anything, even though you just told me we could do it on the couch, but those weren't your intentions at first" She said. "Well maybe I like the way your lips feel on mine" I said and kissed her. "And I like the way your skin feels on mine" I said and caressed her arms.

"And I just want to kiss you all the time, every second, of every minute, of every hour, wether you're mad at me, or I'm mad at you, I would give anything to feel your soft lips on mine" I said giving her a kiss between a word or sentence.

I felt a little buzz, but certainly not drunk anymore. Bella smiled as she kissed me again. As I needed to catch my breath I laid my head on her chest, and she started to graze her nails over my back in patterns. "I love you y/n" Bella whispered. "I love you" I said back. "Come on, let's get you to bed" she said and sat up.

"I don't want to go to bed" I whispered as we quietly went up the stairs. "Well what do you want to do?" She stopped and asked. I smirked at her and played with a few strands of her hair. "Y/n, it's late" she groaned. "You're tired?" I asked. "Yes I am" she sighed. "How about, I'll make it up to you in the morning?" She asked and kissed my forehead. "BUT, You have to go to bed." She added and raised an eyebrow. I pecked her lips and then ran to the bedroom, Bella came in shortly after.

She got into the bed and pulled me close to her, and turned around and kissed her one last time before before drifting off to sleep.

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I'm so sorry these are probably boring and don't make sense but I don't have a whole lot of ideas, and I haven't posted in a while 😭 my apologies