The forbidden love

The project

The rest of the day I thought about what to do for Bella's birthday. That helped distract me A LOT. I was sitting in the library again with a book in my hand but not reading it, I was as I said before thinking about her birthday. "Y/n!" Draco yelled as he ran through the door. "What" I said irritated. "We forgot about the project!" He beamed. "What proje- oh shit" I said and slammed my book.

I had forgotten Snape assigned a potion project for over the break. We were supposed to start it when break started, now we only have 1 week left and we still haven't done it. It may not be that big of a deal though, we could do it quickly enough. Draco held the papers up to me that had the directions. "Soo, there's a math portion in this, and i'm not so good at math so I was wondering if-" "Yes Draco i'll do the math" I said as I rolled my eyes. "Perfect! I need to go to Diagonally to get the ingredients" He said and quickly got up.

"Have fun" I mumbled. Thankfully Snape let us have a partner, because I probably would not have gotten this done in time, and obviously I forgot about it anyways. If it were any other teacher then I wouldn't be doing this project, especially it being over a break, but for some reason Professor Snape is my favorite teacher, and not doing the project will not get me anywhere with him liking me. Also to my advantage Snape has taken a liking in Draco, so maybe he'll like me too.

I went upstairs to Bella's room to find her asleep in the bed. "Seriously Bella, you sleep all day everyday" I sighed and plopped myself down on the bed. "Shhh" She said softly. "Are you sick Bella? Are you ok?" I asked and turned her over. "Yes i'm ok, just tired and I like my bed" she said. "If there is something you want to talk about, you know i'm here" I said. I watched her as she stayed in the same position while clutching her pillow. "Mhm" she hummed back.

"Bella please, if somethings wrong I want you to tell me" I said with a worried tone. Bella slowly turned around and faced me. I laid down next to her while staring into each others eyes and she started caressing my face. "There's nothing wrong sweet girl, I promise" She said softly and smiled. I kissed her softly for a little while and then started on my work.

As I did the math work I would check every problem to see if it was right. Every once in a while I would be wrong. "What the fuck!" I shouted. "What?" Bella opened her eyes and sat up quickly. "Oh- never mind that's a four not a two"  I said to myself and erased the mistake. Bella scoffed and laid back down. I got to the next portion of math, when I started it was easy, but as I got more and more into it I struggled and eventually didn't know how to do it, or at least that's what I told myself.

I got too frustrated with it and gave up. why the hell am I crying now? I'm always great at math, and now I don't understand? I threw the book on the floor and stomped off to the bathroom. I leaned against the door with my knees to my chest and absolutely losing it. "Y/n?" I heard Bella call. I didn't answer her because I didn't want her to know I'm crying. I heard her get up and walk over to the door. She turned the door knob trying to get it open. "Y/n what's wrong? let me in" She said while jiggling the door knob. "I'm ok Bella, just give me a minute" I said while wiping my tears.

I got up and looked in the mirror, my eyes weren't that red so I opened the door and smiled weakly at Bella who had her arms crossed and an impatient look on her face.  "When I tell you to open this door you open it!" She yelled. I looked down at the floor and nodded slowly. She set her fingers under my chin and lifted my head up to look her in the eyes. "I just want to know your alright, a lot of things have happened and every time you lock yourself up I get worried , and that makes me upset...." She said and looked at me in sorrow.

"I mean I could unlock the door but, I want you to allow me in without having to lock it, does that make sense? I want you to be comfortable , I don't want you to think you have to hide things from me, and baby please get it through your head that when you cry I do NOT think your weak"  I started crying again when she said that. Bella grabbed me in a tight hug and played with my hair. "Come on" She whispered and took me back to the bed.