The feeling of rejection depressed shehnaaz to an extent where breathing became erratic heavier as her chest suffocated due to helplessness, anguish longing and desire to be loved.
After so many years, she gathered strength to let anybody in .. to open doors of her dead heart .. a dream to build beautiful family whom she would take as hers without any fear of being alone deep down hates being broken .. kept away from love !
He easily shattered her heart, even though, gave him confidently by believing in him ... no matter what, her love will protect it by holding it kindly respecting and shielding her from getting upset.
By embracing her ..
By promising her to fulfil mesmerising dreams ..
By promising to love her ..
She had high hopes of being equally reciprocated loved and cared if not as lover but as a friend ?
Really, her delusional mind snorted ?
Yeah, she would have been happily satisfied only if sidharth had willingly accepted her proposal !
He left .. by not just breaking her into pieces but putting her dreams at stake .. she thought crying might help sadly it didn't even reduce an inch of her pain, broken heart only yearned for sidharth cause she had given him right to mend her back.
She had made up her mind that only sidharth is capable of providing much needed happiness. A constant battle was being fought between stupid heart and restless brain nothing mattered forget about self respect she wanted him, misses him .. dreamt of spending a beautiful night together to have a romantic dinner dance to serene peaceful music, share their feelings and dream a lit future together everything has been brutally shattered.
He isn't here to embrace her so that she cries her heart out .. He isn't here to kiss her tears away he isn't here to calm her anxious heart down ... he is no where ... she is completely alone fighting fears dealing with her stubborn love whose not in state to give up anytime soon !
She will be fighting until last breath ❤️
He might be just a person to the whole world but for her he is her whole world. How can she move on accept defeat by acknowledging his reasons it didn't felt satisfying.
Her mind is searching for peace unable to find it cried loudly destroying everything around which she had lovingly arranged for their date night. It feels as if somebody stabbed her to death 💔
"I love you, I want you so fucking badly how do I survive .. I don't know .. how do I take you as my friend when my stupid heart has already taken u as soul mate .. I can't breath .. what do I do ?" as tears trickle, hands shook while texting him, she knew it's really dumb of her to plead someone to love her back just cause she loves him.
Nobody, is there to wipe off her tears or motivate her to keep going so what if her love wasn't being reciprocated from someone she had expected, he belongs to her and she won't give up ... gathering herself back .. finally .. stoodup to proceed inside while doing so stumbled on her feet. quickly held railing for support then slowly reached her room.
Harshly, pulled off earrings as well as other piece of jewelry, followed by saree then took out one of his shirt secretly taken from his car .. to cover her naked self wearing him provided peace .... tightly clenched material, as if imagining to be engulfed by him then cries her heart out, complaining like an abandoned child "I miss you ... I didn't realize when did you become so important to me ... even breathing without you seems to be impossible"
"Main kya karun, kaise khud ko samjhaun, pyaar mein par jaana asaan hai usko na haasil karne ka dard lekar chal na behadh mushkil .. kitne asaani se bol kar chala gaya ke bhool jaa, just cause uske bucket list mein settle hona nahin hai .. I can't .. I would have thought only if u loved someone else"
"Bina solid reason ke apne pehle aur aakhri pyaar ko kaise jaane doon .. sidharth ke liye bol na asan hai us har insaan ke liye kehna asaan hai jisko na pyaar huwa na karne ki chahat hai lekin uska kya jisko na chahte huwe bhi hojaye ?"
"Maine nahi hatna peeche phir chahe woh mujhe dheet bhi kyun na keh le bhaar mein gaye duniya bhaar mein gaya sab kuch .... mujhe sirf sidharth chahiye .. uske bina shehnaaz adhoori hai" made up mind to fight not to give up until succeeded.
Drifts off to sleep while thinking about him then woke up early with a determination to win him !
"Bhaiya jaldi se ek bouquet khareed kar sidharth ke office mein jakar unke haath mein daina okay be careful kisi ke haath nahi lagna chahiye waise agar lag bhi gaya toh kya ache baat haina" smiles "ladkiyaun ko lag pata jaana hai sidharth par sirf uske shehnaaz ka haq hai" happily handed over a letter straight from her stubborn heart !
"Tune kal raat mere text ka jawaab nahi na diya ab dekh main kya karte hoon tere hosh na udaye toh mera naam shehnaaz gill nahi, thode dair ... mein driver ayega tere office mera dil lekar jaldi jakar utha le iske pehle koi dekh le !" texted him.
"Tu pagal hai, yaar kyun kar rahe hai yeh .. sab apne harkataun se mujhe guilty feel mat karwa yeh kaisa bachpana hai, woh mere kaam karne wale jagah hai" angrily, texted back to assure it won't be received by anyone else, quickly rushed to office breathing heavily "amitttt" shouted.
"G sir ?" scared to meet anguished sidharth.
"Mere liye kuch aya hai kya ?" shook head, sighs in relief "nahi .. kuch ana tha ?" questions back.
"Nahi, tu jakar apna kaam kar !" scolds him "aap ne pucha meri kya galati ?" earns death glare.
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RomansaA rich girl falling in love with a middle class boy. Marrying him forcefully but regrests her behaviour. His ignorant behaviour later turns to love? How? For that peep in the story... Publishing date:- 19 sep 2021 Status:- On going. Book cover and...
