Understanding You

Chapter 4

Ok. He kissed me. He likes me. But I think I like CJ. This is bad. Really bad.
"Ok Jake look, you're a good- great friend and all, but I like someone else. I want to be your friend, and I'm afraid if we're in a relationship, that could ruin it. I hope you understand." I said. It really broke my heart telling him that. What if he hates me? What if he doesn't care and is like my dad.
"But we're perfect for each other. We have so much in common." Wow. I can't believe he thinks that. We both really want to pursue our dreams of becoming an actor, but that's where our similarities end. He's outgoing, I'm shy. I can only speak in front of a camera, but he can speak in front of a crowd. He's a risk taker, while I haven't been to a school party.
The movie ended and we left the building in silence. We spoke very little in the car.
"Look, I understand that you don't have feelings for me, and I'm sorry I kissed you. I guess I'm gonna have to realize that you don't like me like that," he said,"I thought we had so much in common."
"Well," I started, "we really are polar opposites, but hey, opposites attract, right? But for us it's 'opposites attract friendships'." I said.
"Yea, I guess your right."
He dropped me off in front of my house and we said our goodbyes. I kinda wish I was with him. Since he parked in his driveway, I ran to him before he opened the front door to his house, and have him a gentle kiss on the cheek.
"Thanks for the movie." I said
"No problem." He said with a goofy smile.
I knew he was only trying to be nice when he kissed me. But after, it seemed like he felt like it meant more. Great. God gave me two options, and both of them are what I need, but I can't have both of them. CJ and Jake are like my best friends even though I haven't known either of them that long. I think I'm going to talk to CJ about this whole situation. Oh, wait. He is part of the situation. Maybe I can talk to him on Monday and replace his name with some random name. This is hard