Understanding You

Chapter 11

I stared at Jake's lifeless body. Well, I hope it's not lifeless. I didn't know what to do. What do I do? All of this happened so fast. I feel like screaming or punching something. Nothing's making sense right now.

A lady in a police uniform came up to me and asked me simple (and quite obvious) questions like "Are you okay?" or "Are you hurt?" Well I'm not okay, and does it look like I'm hurt?

"I'm fine" is all I could manage to get out. The lady nodded her head and walked away. I squeezed my eyes shut for a moment and opened them only to see three men rushing over towards me. They asked me to step back- well, more like forced me to step back, that way they could put Jake onto the stretcher. I tried holding back my tears. Just this morning I told Jake that I loved him, which not only surprised him, but me as well. I also kissed him, which was unbelievable, considering that I'm not one to just kiss any guy. But Jake's not "any guy". We've become close friends over the summer and he's been there for me when I need him most. But I've only known him for what? Maybe three and a half months now?

I didn't realize I was crying until I saw my mom run into the building and tell me that everything was going to be okay. We stood there hugging for what seemed like hours, which was only seconds before a police officer started asking me questions about what had happened. All I could do was either nod my head or answer with short sentences. She asked me if I was injured in any way (just like the other officer) and unless she meant emotionally, then no. But if she did mean emotionally, then I'd be in some sort of emotional coma... or depression. Whatever makes sense for you.

"Katie, I'm gonna be honest," my mom started "I've never been in this situation, but when I was your age and went through break-ups, you know what I did to cheer myself up?" I just stared at her before she continued. "I'd get fro-yo."

I smiled "Are you suggesting that we get fro-yo to get my mind off of things?"

"Maybe... maybe not." she said with a smirk

"Well, I guess," I suddenly remembered Jake "But we have to see Jake right after, okay?" 

We left the building and as we were walking out I saw Jake's mom getting into an ambulance . I was really worried about Jake. But I held back my tears so I wouldn't make my mom worried about me. 

We walked into the fro-yo shop and can I just say this: Oh my fucking gosh. It was so colorful. Too colorful. I know this sounds really depressing and all, but I don't really like rainbows and stuff like that. I know. I'm heartless.

"Ohh! They have strawberry and raspberry?!?" My mom exclaimed "Yippie!!" 

"Oh my gosh..." I said as I shook my head in disbelief. I ended up getting peanut butter and chocolate swirl with some peanut butter cups on top. And my mom? She got strawberry and raspberry swirl with strawberry syrup and gummy worms on top... and jelly beans... and actual raspberries. Yea. My mom decked herself out on the whole frozen yogurt thing. 

"Nine dollars and twenty-seven cents." The guy behind the counter said. I could tell he was checking me out. I started to grab some cash when a voice stopped me.

"I'll pay for it." I turned around to see CJ standing right there.

"Oh hey CJ! You don't have to."

"Oh, but I do," He said while handing the clerk a ten. "Keep the change." The guy looked at CJ and I before we turned around and found my mom sitting at a table on her phone. Sometimes she acts like a teenager.

"Mom, this is my friend CJ, CJ this is my mom." I introduced them to each other. My mom looked at CJ, and then at me and gave me a wide smile.

"Well, I have to get going, but Katie I'll see you at school on Monday, right?" CJ asked me. I just nodded my head in return and smiled.

"Wow Katie, he's a cutie,"

"Shut up Mom, that's wrong," I said while glaring at her

"You know what I meant," she said while trying to hold back the laughter that was slowly building up inside her.

I don't understand. Why can't I make a decision?!? They're both the sweetest guys on earth, but what if one of them asked me out? What would I say. This is too confusing. 

Do you ever get the feeling like no one understands you? Well, I feel that way right now. I don't even understand myself.

Author's Note: Yup. I have writers block. For those of you that actually read this, please, please please give me ideas!!! Thanks, ily!

~Kenzie