I need to vent.
I feel like everything's been going wrong...
My weight hasn't changed much since I started dieting. I purged this evening, and I've never felt more exhausted. I just cut myself after a month of being clean. I lasted for so long....
I'm just so disappointed in myself now that all this stuff has happened. I got a youtube comment that said "you look like one of those people who complains on twitter about there being no obese women of color in super smash bros" and said "wtf is that". This was said by the same person. I'm not responding to these types of comments, but I really want to. But I know I shouldn't. Everything Is frustrating me right now. My weight, my ugly thwomp face, the fact that i just cut myself again, the fact that i want to purge and cry and starve myself for a week because i dont feel worthy enough for food. Thanksgiving is next week, I don't want to go but I know I should because it's gonna be really fun but I'm scared. (thank god for spell check.)
