walton imagines

chaotic-jaden

(Listen to the song when the bolds pop up)

"I have this paralyzing that'll maybe go nowhere but God forbid me ever admitting i could be scared."
Lately life has took toll on me. I lost so many people. Family friends many more .I'm scared to lose more but I never want to admit it to anyone.
"I can't stand my friends right now we got nothing in comein but being lonely worse than having friends that don't care."
Me and my friends have got In so many fights but we still figure it out. They don't have anything In comein right now and it sucks we always shared something now we don't even share one thing...
"You said it looks like I have been going threw hell how did you know?how could you tell?"
All I do is fake smile now but inside only a few people know I'm broken inside my outside might say different but it isn't true I guess I can put up a act
"You ask me to explain myself...well..."
One day my friend Emma finally sat me down and told me to tell her everything and I need to explain myself well...
"I'm trying my best to be brutally honest nobody said changing could be this exhausting."
I said to her I'm trying my best her to be brutally honest and she said to me to continue I said nobody said changing would be this exhausting.
"A foot on the break cause its been making me Carsick how could you blame growing up is chaotic..."
I told her I needed to stop everything and made me feel like I was Carsick and felt like I was gonna die and she went to say something I said how could you blame me growing up is chaotic...
"Don't want to say it but I really think
That I miss him might seem stupid but I still go through all of are texts who ever knew wanting someone could make me this desperate,don't think I'll do it again nooo."
Ever since everything happened me and jaden broke up cause I fully shut him out I didn't want to but at the time my head and heart were fighting and my head said to shut him out. I look through are pictures and texts remembering everything we went threw who knew I could be this desperate. But when I came across these couple pictures it broke me

i remember this it was the first time we hung out before we dated

when me and jaden went to the beach with everyone and we wanted to have are first couple picture

When he slept over and woke me up by jumping on me

When I went on a road trip with the waltons and jayla took this

And this one.. this one really broke me this one was the 4th of July and we posted this to announce are relationship.....
"You said it looks like I have been going through hell how did you know how could you tell."
My friends think I'm happy when I'm not but I hide it
(I'm gonna skip a couple lyrics)
"Maybe I'm just blowing all this shit up In my head I can't help it no I can't help it fooling myself thing that I'll never love again God damn I felt it I really felt it..."
I been over thinking me and my friends hung out and one of jadens friends got In touch with me saying he wasn't doing well at all and I now felt like I'll never loved again ..
"I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest nobody said changing could be this exhausting foot on the break cause its been making me Carsick how could you blame me...."
I told jadens friend how I felt and feelings made me feel carsick and how could anyone blame me its been chaotic....

Authors notes
I loved this chapter I thought of it in the store out of no where