The Summer Of Grey

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

I give her a quick kiss and push through the crowd until she's out of my field of vision. Ok where too now? I see a few nearby stores like forever 21, Pacsun ,Abercrombie and Fitch, and I must go to Sephora after.

I just saw two of Christian Grey's friends with some random girls as I was going into a department store but he wasn't anywhere in site, Too bad. I'm feeling surprisingly good today. I have a little tan going on and my legs look slightly toned. A few boys have glanced at me todayhere it but that's about it. Story of my life. I'd feel stupid alone anyway if some random guy tried to pick me up. Who am I kidding? I fucking wish a guy would pick me up!

These are the times when I need and miss my best friend to do the everyday stuff with, like going the mall, the beach, or just hanging out. I feel kind of lonely all of a sudden but I'd better get used to it. Even at school we barely saw each other. We had different schedules including lunch. We had PE together last year and that was it. The only time we saw each other at school was on the bus ride back and forth.

Next stop is Hollister; let me put my gas mask on first so I don't choke to death on the overwhelming scent of perfume and body spray. That's the one and only thing I hate about that store, other than that clothes here are really cute. Justin worked here for almost 2 years at this location then transferred to another store in NYC near his college. I know most of the staff here, but I always feel out of place especially during back to school time when everyone from my school is shopping in this mall.

The music is blasting some happy summer theme as I slowly browse the store hoping to find some cute stuff. The bitchy girls at my school travel in packs like rabid wolves and buy matching outfits to show everyone at school that they are "besties". Ugh, that annoys the shit out of me.

I found some cute skinny jeans, sweatpants, tees, shorts and a ruffled white bikini on clearance plus a few other items and I get on line for the fitting room. The line is so long and they only have 4 fitting rooms that are very tiny. Finally I get in a room and try on the clothes. Mostly everything fits and I'm so happy. I get on the beyond long checkout line to pay and wait my turn, everyone is loud and animated and their arms are filled with piles of clothing. I see some angry moms shaking their heads as they swipe their credit cards, so I'm happy I ditched my mother.

I see a few girls from my school and try to hide under my pile of clothes so they don't see me alone. I don't feel like being seen by those girls especially one of them. I try not to look in front of me or behind me ,just down. After they leave I let out a sigh of relief, whew, they didn't see me! I usually would call a friend to shop with me but since my mom took me today I didn't want to ask anyone to go, that's just awkward, anyway nobody really asks me to hang out and I still haven't called Alexa.

I can usually get my mother to spend more money on me if I make her feel bad that I'm alone, hey whatever works right? I have some money saved from my job at the hardware store. I have been working at Clayton's three days a week after school for two years but i decided to take this summer off. Mr Clayton says I can come back anytime but I need to keep my grades up this year so I get into a good college so I may only work weekends starting in the fall. My mom said I should save my money for something special so its in the bank. Im really saving it in case my mom needs it in an emergency although she'd never ask

I honestly don't mind shopping alone sometimes, this way I get what I need, take my time and don't have to give my critique on who's ass looks good in this or that or wait 30 minutes for someone to try on clothes. Today especially because I'm buying stuff I wouldn't normally wear to school. I mean I do wear these brands it's just I always buy stuff looser, never really tight fitting but I have no reason to hide my body. I've just been doing it for so long it's become a habit. A bad habit, that ends now.