Out of Time (5SOS)

Chapter 27

Quick note - We remember the ANZAC's who fought on Turkish land 100 years ago. It is ANZAC day today and it was full of remembrance and speeches from all around Australia and in Turkey.

I lay in the hospital bed, staring at the white walls. Mum beside me asleep. I can't do anything. If I move too much, I tire myself out, and that means less time on this earth. 

"Mum?" I call out. She wakes up instantly. "Could you please go home and grab my laptop, I have to create something." She nodded and stood up, kissing my head and then leaving. Tonight is the last show before they put the tour on hold. I will be able to see them tomorrow. 

A nurse walked into my room. "You have a visitor." I look up to her and see Pete walk in. 

"Get him out." I said sourly. 

"Wait, Harmony." He pleaded. 

"I want nothing to do with you Pete, leave me alone." I said just as the nurse shut the door leaving me in the room by myself. I flicked on the TV and decided to watch Ellen. 

Mum returned with my laptop bag and I began editing the videos for the music components. Putting videos and photos for both of the songs. I began crying while creating it but mum was asleep again so she didn't see me. I couldn't help it, just looking over at the things I have done. 

I had ended up crying myself to sleep at the thought of it all. I got my hospital meal and ate slowly, incase my body had the need to bring it back up. Mum looked really depressed, what was she going to do now? After I'm gone, that's it. I reached out and held her hand, she looked to me. 

"I want you to go out and find someone mum, you haven't been on a date since dad left us. I don't want you to stay single for the rest of your life." I said to her, she began crying again. "Promise me mum." She nodded and hugged me tightly. I wrapped my arms around her and hugged her back . Mum's phone began ringing and she picked it up. I returned to eating my food slowly. 

"They'll be here soon dear." She smiled. I looked up to her. "They got out of the concert for tonight, but they'll be refunding everyone's tickets. They've just landed in Melbourne, I haven't told them what's going on." I nodded my head. "What are you doing on your laptop dear?"

"Something for my funeral." I said quietly. "I don't want anyone to see it, until it's the right time, not even you mum." She nodded at my request.

They made it to the hospital and all piled into my room. Bree was the first to run in hugging me tightly. I hugged her back and let my tears fall down my cheeks. Mum ushered everyone out except for Bree, Ashton and Mary. The nurse came in and told them all what was happening. Bree and Ashton held my hands tightly. Bree had lost it, she couldn't hold her tears in any longer. Mary rubbed her back. I looked to Ashton who was staring blankly at my bed sheets. Mum began letting tears run down her cheeks too. 

"Tomorrow you'll be allowed to go home, but we can't do anything more for you Harmony." The nurse left the room to tell everyone outside. Bree hugged me tightly before hugging her mum. Ashton stood up and left the room without looking at me or talking to me. I felt my heart shatter. I began crying a little. I thought he'd want to spend time with me, not flee when things turn grey. Maybe Pete was right. He would leave me. Pete barged back into the room and began yelling profanities at us all. Mary shoved him out side the hospital to talk to him. One by one I wanted to speak to everyone. Bree went and sat outside with Luke as Ash and Michael walked into the room. They sat down next to me as I began to thank them. 

"I guess I'll start with you Michael." I said looking to him. He moved closer to me and took hold of one of my hands. "I want to thank you. If we didn't bump into you at the concert, and you didn't stop for a photo, we wouldn't of met any of you. Thank you for all of the times we've spent together, when you had supported me in my hair dying." He laughed a little. "Just going easy on me when I needed it and just over all being kind to me. I wish I had gotten to know you a little better, but please take care of yourself. I'll always be with you, even if I'm not here." He leaned forward and hugged me. I looked to Ash. Her eyes brimmed with tears. "Ash." I smiled. She took hold of both of my hands. "You and I have been so close. We have the same taste in almost everything. You're always such a joy to be around. Someone I can really count on. I feel like I'm going to start crying, so don't mind me." I laughed a little as I felt my eyes water. "You've helped me to move on Ash, to keep going. To not give up. To share my music tastes, to not bring me down. A true, reliable friend. I'm going to miss you dearly."