Out of Time (5SOS)

Chapter 28

I feel even more drained than yesterday. I have this horrible feeling today is it. Today is my last day. Ashton is laying beside me on his phone, not realising I'm awake. Everyone else has been spread around the house. 

I shift a little and kiss Ashton's cheek. Even that was tiring. I heard my mum in the kitchen, I haven't thanked her yet. "Ashton? Would you be able to carry me into the kitchen? I need to say something to mum." He nodded and lifted me off the bed. He carried me over to mum and put me on a stool. Mum was opposite me. Ashton walked back to my room. "I want to say something to you mum." She walked around the bench and sat on the stool next to me. She took my hand in hers. 

"You look quite pale and drained, Harmony." She said softly. I nodded. 

"I know. That's why I want to talk to you, I have this feeling, today is it. Today is my last day." Her eyes began to fill with tears. "I love you mum, you have been the best mother I could of asked for. You have never left my side, unlike dad, even when we went around the world to follow he bands, I can't thank you enough. I know this isn't easy on you, since I'm you're only child, but mum I'll always be with you, always, please remember that." She nodded. "You are the one who has helped me to live out my life correctly, helped me with doctor appointments, helped me with everything, absolutely everything. This has been going on for a few years, a few years you've taken out of your life to help me. I want you to take those years back once I'm gone, go dating, go have fun! Meet new people, get the bands to introduce you to celebrities! The ideas are endless. 

"You gave birth to me, I'm the fruit of your womb, you're the role model in my life, and always will be. When you remember me, don't think of me as being gone, think of the times we've spent together, even before I got this illness, we used to have so much fun! Even when this thing did happen, we still had our moments. Our shopping expeditions, late night movies, karaoke." She laughed a little at remembering. "I'll never be truly gone mum, not unless you remember me." Tears were flowing out of my eyes. She reached over and hugged me tightly, my tears continued to run down my cheeks with no signs of stopping. 

"I want to show you something." She said and pulled away from me, then picking me up. She carried me to the lounge room in the front of the house. There was a wall covered in photos in photo frames of me and my friends, things I have done. It's a shrine. My tears picked up again. She placed me on the couch. In the centre of the photos is one of me and mum when I had just been born. 

"It's beautiful mum." I sobbed and hugged her. 

"It will always be up for you Harmony, I will never forget you, I can't ever forget you." She kissed my head. There are photos from when I was in kindergarten and primary school, with Bree, with the bands, school photos, everything that has happened in my life. It was so big it's almost covered the whole wall in photos of me. 

"Thank you mum." I sobbed again. 

I was back in bed and everyone had climbed on so we could watch a movie. It's Now You See Me. I love this movie, thought I might as well watch it since there won't be much time left. 

After the movie I spoke to everyone. "I just wanted to give you all a massive thanks for everything you have done for me. I know I've said something individually to you all but I feel like today is my last day, and I know I'm not ready to leave this earth, but I want you guys to keep going with what you're doing, keep touring, keep writing music, because if I get the chance to watch over you all, I'll be proud of you, with what ever you're doing." I began crying again. "I've made arrangements for my funeral, which I have given to mum. I small parting gift for you all. I love you all dearly, thank you for the past months, years in some cases." They all climbed over each other to give me a group hug. They all pulled away and returned to their music. They were playing some song, I've never heard it before. It was so sweet though, but there was no lyrics, it was just the instrumental. I could feel myself falling asleep so I pulled out my phone and went onto twitter. Tweeting a few sweet things and some photos of the bands practicing. I also saw some tweets from Cody, indirecting Sky and the bands. I guess they have officially broken up, and he is not happy about it. I looked up to everyone, Bree caught my gaze.