This is the chapter where you discussed a lot of things and what is going on in your life how you get better as years months seconds go by this is your personal diary where a side of your, people don't know even your close best friend don't know about it hope you don't cry reading it just kidding this is a journey of your life, be patient in things I hope we will get what we deserve hope things will be better even there are nights we feel alone, unfulfilled, unwanted, and unloved no matter what happens don't kill yourself you can kill your soul but don't kill the boy of yours Eros.
Feb 8, 2022.
9:08pm
Eros,
I know we're facing hard times right now problems and things we can't solve, so much thoughts we can't emphasize one by one so tired of this life its another day of so called misery and just relying on stupid thing called love I know it's a joke thinking and imagining of someone who can understand and give us affection. At the age of 14-15 lost in the wilderness can't even freaking breathe to my situation right now I had so much to write so much even this record book can't even handle it all but I'm so tired and can't write no more
April 4
3:00pm
Us,
Here we are still trying to live it had been two months already and we still can't fight our insecurities, anxiety, problems one by one I count my blessings but the negative aspects reaches out on my mind skin body and limbs I am hardly do called human anyone as I seek for things that will make me feel alive I am just existing the only human left in me was the self loathing emotions I always feel its hard to be human also hard to force yourself to be alive when you feel nothing but a deep void of emptiness in our being still don't lose hope but don't expect too much especially to a person or to someone stay humble and down to earth as you are be kind to people and trust, pray, have faith to God if you can't trust on anybody on this so called world you are existing we will reach it as long as we had dreams we know, we know that in inner us self I and we there's a lot of potential we can unleash once we use it on right path and right opportunity if us lived to yourself and to God.
April 11 (Mon)
Eros,
So the event happened on Sunday evening, an event that brings a lot of sadness and more struggle it just shows how life can be merciless even you just don't do anything wrong to them no matter how good you are people or most will define you on what you look as if you are made as perfect porcelain doll than what you are inside, been there done that it just sucks in this generation narcissist and perfectionist became more and more even children's too the influence of things we see the insecurities in our body it's disgusting to feel hopeless than we ever felt after that person said those words ashame and pity are we, pity for him because he has no remorse saying it in my being I just hope I can be better and more strong to fight through the struggles we are in, God is always here I know but I need physical back up too if possible I want to be more looking good and will strive on what I wanted to be i know in us we need just go set aside things that burdens us do we could step forward with our head held high we need to focus more and do the best we can since there are times when we didn't accomplished things we want but not if what we planned perfectly executed by us. As long I will have that self confidence trust in my being and prayers in me, may things one day be better even if I don't know how much long we are going to be sometimes I can't contain anymore of what is inside me I just want to breathe to lift this heavy burden do I can make my plans and so I won't he just a one trick shit who just say words but can't do it in realistic ways dreaming Is one but actions is better than to just dream and plan without doing it I have no anger to the guy anymore I can forgive but the words he said will be permanently in my brain.
June 4th, 2022.
1:21 pm.
Self,
Here we are lying in the room so many things to do I can't seem to do my brain is haywired and I am overwhelmed with my damned emotions for this day
