Sooooo many things happened to this year uhuh mmyeahhh!
Self,
Random thoughts about this year before it ends, let's start with gosh I don't know where to there's like million things happen with this shitty year that ugh I don't want to comprehend enough. We had been through ups and downs it was really a roller coaster of emotions last year's it didn't even bother to me what I am doing as long I'm studying and having fun with my friends but as I mature I think about things matter especially learning each failures or lessons in every situations this year it's about our issues, our self's growth and development as we
are trying to let go of things that continuing to kill us, after all we are just protecting us to be in despair again, it's about hurt, attachments, expectations, happiness, sadness, losing conscious to self, being fragile, letting the emotion manipulate us and done unwanted decisions/stuff, assuming things, seeing what is not really there at all and letting go. Growing, resilience, self control towards what is right in what is the right thing to do, un-attaching to issues, starting to be great, anxiety, insecurities, hatred, envy putting boundaries and accepting things the way they are, loving oneself and family issues. This is just few things that happen to us this year goodness I dont know how to express it one by one but of course we are going to discuss it all.
Let's begin to Eros/eco and Carel ft. Angela story.
This one hits hard I can hardly remember because I don't want to but this year will end and we need to left this behind all of emotions unsaid okay I began to fall to Angela lose our friendship to Carel which she loved us as being us, she like us but we don't like her and we are too naive in so called love we began to easily attached to Angela which we don't know she was a bisexual but she want is a girl so she left go home for several weeks we didn't talked to her we get back to be friends with Carel in the end (yey!!) And it was a great thing because we are soo vibes at being just friends and we get along too well the first bfff I want to bond with for decades of my life she gets us we get her and Angela we get back as friends and I'm her kuya now it all ended well hep-hep hooray!
Next one Eros And Alvin Mwah.
So Eros and Alvin met at wattyla which is a group chat and we are that time kind of a shitty one fragile finding shitting and we got together I was a red flag I want his attention and all but he don't have a phone I understand oh well it ended fine I got unattached feeling lost then being a idiiot it ends voilà but I can't ignore that he/she was understanding and I think he was the person I loved behind the screen long distance one, I just can't help how can I unloved him just because we lost communication with each other it just a sad one but I want him now I don't he's a green flag I hope I see this person in real life one day and thank he/her for the lesson given to me.
Okay next is Clark the fragile and Shutanginang Andrew E.
So I was with Alvin that time then I got attached to Mr E. Uhuh I remember when it was election day as president I was keep looking at him hahaha idiot then attached began to be jealous blah blah then we are now friends voilà pure immature and shitty attachment.
Next is oh my oh my this is a wildcard of the year. Mr eye stare slash Mr gossiper that we hate that red flag flirt
And now we don't give a fuck anymore who is he again? Oh just a random stranger okay that's what I like about you self so fcking resilient mwa. So about him yea we first see him to sir Mhar's room outside and that's the time it started i thought by the time pass it was gone and here I was an idiot one keep putting log to the flame and it kept burning how silly I was as usual I'm so immature in this I don't know I just go so -,- you know I thought it was love in the end it was just an attraction created by silly emotion yea we pursued him with the help of our gbfff and then we failed we known he gossiped it and surely to the teacher too I felt the teachers hatred ew how dare you normie closeminded and homophobic person judge me without knowing me as if he thinks he will scare me by glaring at me every time, hello Mr teacher I'm used to being hate and simple gestures won't inflict anything on me but only iritate me that you don't confront me what's your fcking problem with me. So yeah then Mr. Eye is a flirt too he flirted with novel with other girls whatever so it not end well we lost ourselves that time question our worth blah blah blah without knowing it's not me or him it just that he does not preferred males the end and we got back to ourself mwhahaha bitch think you can kill me just like that? Think again.
