Soo we're back to back to backkkkkk in another year end story that we had Hahahashshahaha potanginang buhay to pero atleast buhai shutangina beh daming nanyare no???
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Eros, 12/22/23 1:58 pm
So dito natin simulan since open tayo sa kung anong languages kasi year end naman to di diary like duh pang kanal si ante ngayon ah HAHAHAHA I can't remember much that had happened graduation stuff's and so forth, tapos enrollment then here comes the best part the college days where we had start our bloodbath days HAHAHAH yawa ka bejj, so ayunn nga~
First sem It was fine then medjo humirap hanggang naging extremes na sya like wtf??? sobra sobra patong minor kaysa sa major tapos lang kwenta pa ibang teachers may superiority complex ampota na pedophile really sis?? kaya ayoko sa ganyan eh sus tapos kinokonsinte pa ng school the audacity bess, another thing is the delulu moments ayunn never again like the always HAHAHA I'm more stable na thanks to last year of deluluness mas naging self aware nako sa mundo because I'm living in my dorm and doing things then once 2024 comes I'll settle my ass down to the things I didn't focus on to and stop imaging those things that won't help me at all in my journey in life I'm being petty all this time because gutom ako sa atensyon ng ibang tao para mabuo ako but little did i know all I need is myself to complete me I was a completely utter fool to think na may pag asa ako sa ganitong mga bagay yes I've been woken upo more and more thanks to the things that happened I know that now ang kailangan Kong unahin ay ang sarili no not other especially those who aren't befriend to us, people are just a tool or a stepping stone so that you can reach your goals we don't really need them in our life but they could be beneficial in our journey that's why we'll let them stay to us but not closer Ika nga love is just a stupid thing to do and I know it won't be something useful in the long run of life I'm just being a coward fragile human like almost everybody else masyado kong pinapahalata kahinaan ko sa labas ng mundo and I won't let it happen again because being my valnurable is only to those who deserves it and I know we don't deserve all the people we meet in life they'll just be there and pass us by in the end, how many times do I need to remind myself?? Of course I will remind us hanggang sa magiging Tayo sa katotohanan na fucked up tong mundo at kung gusto mo mabuhay tumayo ka mag Isa Hindi Sila Ang tatayo para sayo wag pairalin ang katangahan at time don't heal anything you did.
So you know believing in your own lies and delusions will only trap you and make you more miserable alam mo nayan dati pa pero you keep being a coward now this year will end and you know what to do more than ever that's why wag kang papasok sa Isang sitwasyon na alam mong talo ka, mind your own life and be a powerhouse.
Pota parang preaching na nangyari so the summarize is this year is pagod lessons and more lessons that had woken us up more and yes we are just starting hindi pa tapos.
Las year has given us a lot too you know, know the lessons given to us is courage, bravery and persuasion para magpatuloy lang sa buhay no matter what also the continuous fixing of our attachments and delulunes that we have eversince we aren't like the last year anymore and I'm glad because we had learned a lot and now we are more guarded than ever.
Another lesson is how to be grateful in life not listening to what might others say because your life is yours and not theirs tsaka you must be exposed in the outer world more so that you'll know how humans work, you are too immature in socialization but mature when you are planning things that you put your mind into.
But I must say thanks to the last year we had learned a lot back there a lot of issues that we had and attachments that we don't wanted because we mistreated ourself and didn't put us first like what we had to do, yes wala tayong dapat hintayin na tao and yes masama ang pagiging attached lalo na pag di magiging sayo, thank you 17 Clark you had taught me a lot last year that now I had avoid things na I shouldn't do if you can see me right now I know you'll be proud of me/us and what we had achieved as the days, time, weeks and months passed by. Without you di ko matutunan tong lessons without our mistakes the last year siguro madami nakong nagawa Ngayon.
Because I didn't learned enough that's why but because we had failed, rejected and laughed at it changed us and put those words into the reality and syempre nagising nadin tayo ng Todo Todo HAHAHA another reason kung bakit we must stay in touch with our self not to others we must stop worrying about what they see to us, I must stop being delusional to others and if alam mong di sayo leave it right away.
Like last time you know when someone is bad for you that's why those butterflies aren't a butterfly but an anxiety that has been warning you all along that's why we should believe it in our body that when someone's aura is not good for us wag nating ipilit.
Anyways after this year end we will go through another adjustments so that we'll be prepared for another round of days that will go towards us and yes, I'm ready to change as long it will help me to stop those things na mangyayari.
So in conclusion this year is about fixing our last year's issues, helping ourselves to be more responsible and strong than the last year, keeping with out attachment issues and fixing it so that we won't put ourself in a weakend position again, self issues lalo na yung hopelessness na nararamdaman natin because we know nothing will happen if we just whine always, and also yung issues natin sa insecurities we are not that insecure but we still have it then being more caring to us giving more love to ourself than to others and putting us in the priority lane, letting my throne rise again because I had lost my conciousness, and letting this realization that I had to give me a wake up call more than ever thank you for this year I had learned a lot again and I hope it will be useful to the next year that will come to us can't wait for my growth in the long run and my progress to be in this world.
I am more stronger when I am super self aware and I know that's what I lack of I know my strengths and weaknesses yet I had been blind.
But guess not anymore, I-18 Clark is signing off with more stronger self will and awareness thanks to the things that we had applied to us the past years.
