ALL IN THIS WORLD

PATTERNS OF A LOST HEART

Sometimes, we look for love, but other times, love look for us. To be honest, it's really quite interesting how life works. You fall in love, then, all of a sudden, it breaks. Then, there's one situation where you fall in love, and you want to keep it that way.

But, everything we have here are just lended by God, and nothing lasts forever. You tried so hard to keep things as you love, but then..it's all gone. It doesn't matter how much you try, you just can't.

That's what I learn in life. I tried to accept of the fact, but for some reason, I just kept denying it. I tried so hard, but unable to detach myself from this illness I have. The flashback kept playing inside my head. It still felt real, even though that accident had been five years ago.

Like a video player inside my head, I can still remember you on the hospital bed, all pale, but not sick. In pain, but, nonetheless, smiling. Those were the lingering images in my mind.

Suddenly, your eyes stopped sparkling like it always had. You exhaled calmly, your last words echoing: "I'm going, but I'm still here with you."

Like a shiv stabbed through my chest. Like a bullet shot through my heart. It literally felt like the end of the world, my world. It took me 3 years to heal. I almost committed suicide many times, but, luckily, my brothers stopped me everytime.

They helped me heal, and regain my true self. It was a long journey. It was hard to accept, but I don't have any other choices. They took me to see the beauty of life. You lose one you love, but you have other people you love. It opened my eyes, and I missed such beauty.

It was difficult, yes, but, it's going to help you in life, without literally having to run out of tissues so fast, if you get what I mean. There is still hope, and believe that there still is.