This fear is varied. It's more towards my anxiety than a fear.
I'm ridiculously anxious when around too many people. Crowds make my anxiety rocket. Public places often worry me.
On my own, I shake, I panic and I get ridiculously sweaty. The thought of being in a crowded place makes me feel sick. My hands shake as if I'm having some sort of seizure or fit. They clam up, I pick at my skin etc. My body tightens up. My eyes scan the situation looking for the closest exit, the closest open space.
However it's a slightly different story when I'm with someone I love/trust. I feel safe if they're with me. Although my anxiety still rockets, I feel a little more comfortable with the situation. My eyes still scan the whole crowd and the whole situation but I know if something happens I'm with someone I trust.
I've gotten better over the years with this but it's still a fear/issue that swallows me whole. I wanna be able to go to festivals and events so it's a fear I've got to manage to be able to handle and I'll get there eventually.
