I didn't do it .
It's been 3 months since we stopped talking
I've had my up and downs
I think I'm finally starting to heal
I feel better
I like myself a little more now
I understand it wasn't my fault
I do miss him sometimes
Now less then ever
I'm trying to become my own person
Not depending on anyone
Just me
I've made new friends
One of is now my best friend
He understands me
I can be whatever I want with him
I think he's one of my soulmates
But tend to romanticize everything at the beginning
I'm still single ( as usual)
I see my ""ex"" sometimes when I go out
He doesn't talk to me
At first it hurt me
Because besides everything I was in love with him
He was my first love
The thing is it wasn't the kinda of love I thought it was
But still
Love
At the beginning I wish we could be friends again
I thought he hated me
He pretended I wasn't there
I got so sad and nervous
But it's all past now
We don't talk
Now neither of us like each other
But it's okay
I don't care anymore
And that's a good thing because
People are quick to think hate it's the opposite of love,I think they're side by side ,you can only hate someone your capable of loving,
Freud used to say ,the opposite love it's indifference ,
I love psychology !
It's helps me
Figured out others
And most important myself .
I think I'm happy
Right now at least
As I'm writing this I feel light
Happy
And at ease .
I started eating again
I know it good for me,
I gain a little weight ,
But can't help to think I look huge
But still, eating.
I stopped going out so much
Just once a month
I still smoke sometimes
But not frequently
I still drink
Not as much as before.
I'm as tired as ever
I spend the whole day out studying
It's very Tiring
But I'm fine
I feel fine .
It's nice feeling good.
Let's see how much will it last.
