she doesn't belong here

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natille's pov
everyone is dressed in black while the room is white and its that sort of white that it makes it almost look blue i have mostly seen white that makes it look a bit yellow but anyways who cares there are two coffins at the front
some people are crying and some have that stupid face i don't like any of them so i decided to leave
my hands were intertwined resting on my head and i was walking when someone vigorously pulled me , oh it was my so called aunt , my mother's younger sister

aunt - natielle !! what kind of girl are you , its your own parents funeral we all know how good your parents were and what a tragic loss it had been due to an unexpected car accident and you are their daughter yet you are walking out of their funeral

i stayed quite because i don't feel like answering her i just stare at her

aunt - you never showed any emotion never , do you know a child cries when they take birth even at that time you had this same empty face , doctors thought you were dead but you were breathing , i wonder how u manage to do so

i wanted to move from this place so i pulled out the knife i sneaked before coming at this useless place because i knew some asshole would say stuff like that

i pointed the knife at her

suddenly her face changed her eyes wandering from my knife to me back and forth i stayed in that position not saying a word

water started pouring out of her eyes as per what i know they are called as tears   they come when a person is sad , or either to happy , i never understood being sad or happy but i did saw people being sad or happy
finally aunt broke the silence and said

"you can go wherever you like but i am telling you young lady you certainly are not a human "

i spoke my words to her thinking i will never see her because i don't want to
" i never thought i was one "

and i continued to walk wherever my feets lead i thought
crying is water falling out from eyes how stupid and besides crying people i've seen smiling people and humans say that they look beautiful while smiling but to me they are still the same assholes or maybe even greater assholes while smiling

when i was 5 i tried to mimick smiling people curl up there lips in such a way that their cheeks gather underneath their eyes and sometimes their eyes closes and glimps of their teeth is visible so i did that but i couldn't do it so i didn't do it

i was walking walking walking walking walking
and i came past a mirror , usually i don't find mirrors on roads so i took a glimpse
it was my reflection in my mirror i stared at my reflection the same way i do at asshole human beings

i saw a void empty and black but a little light somwhere brown in my eyes

i too was wearing black clothes

suddenly the world started jiggling up like juice in a mixie and then it was like the void inside my eyes came outside because every thing blacked out and i fell into it and then i was in air falling from sky somwhere i didn't knew and when i got close to ground i started falling slowly slowly like someone did that intentionally so i don't fall and i landed on ground without a scratch there was grass underneath every where was green and a river was flowing sideby i looked at my surroundings and discovered i wasn't alone

there was a man probably in his 20's maybe a few year older than me , he had a stupid outfit , and stupid smile too he wasn't wearing any shirt just a red cape that covered his chest but exposed his well built abs and it went from its shoulder touching the ground . he had a golden crown on his head , and his pants of black coloured he had grey eyes brown curly hairs his eyes were deep like mine like they contained a void inside them but his void was grey instead of black , he was handsome but still stupid so who cares

he was looking down at me and when i looked back at him he offered a hand to me , to get up , ofc i didn't needed it and ignored his hand like it doesn't exsist and got up on my own , stupid asshole i thought to myself

he let out a sigh and said

"so you finally arrived"
he had a deep voice yet joyful one like a voice that carry many things at same time

who are you ? i said with that same emotionless face of mine

he stepped forward and placed a hand on my shoulder and said
"oh dear its complicated"

i took out my knife in an instant and stabbed  the same hand he placed on my shoulder , as why i did it , i just felt like doing so

he looked like a human but he was different according to my analysation if i stabbed someone they would either cry from pain or get angry because of the fucking audacity but he , he smiled instead

he took out the knife out of his hand and threw it on the grass , still smiling , he had a wound on his hand now but he ran his healthy hand on his wounded hand and in matter of few seconds the wound disappeared

i looked from wound to man and that was the first time i felt emotion and my emotion was astonishment , that a asshole human is capable of such a thing

it was like this world isn't that boring something interesting exsist

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