Reflection.
Everything went back to normal after a few days. You,Justin, and Blake hung out after school everyday which made you very happy. You still were a bit ill so you went and saw your doctor to have weekly meetings. You were getting better since Justin was back but you still were a little wobbly.
"How are things Y/N?" Dr. Lawrence smiled at you.
"Pretty good." You smiled back.
"I see your rubbing your wrists. Is there something bothering you?" She looked concerned.
"I've just been...i dont know. I want to." You babbled.
Dr. Lawrence understood, "Y/N it's normal to have the urge to cut even if youre getting better. It's just like any other habit. If we help it now,you'll stop having the urge but if we dont...it can become an addiction."
You nodded knowing that you really wanted her to help you.
"What can i do?"
"Well theres many things..."
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"She just said to make sure im always busy doing something and that one of you or my parents are with me. She said if im alone then itll be harder to stop myself in the beginning." You looked up at Blake and Justin.
"Ofcourse babygirl. We'll be right here!" Justin rubbed your leg and smiled.
"And if you ever do need to be alone. Just tell us. As long as you trust yourself!" Blake chimmed in.
"Thanks guys." You smiled and then looked at the clock; 4:30.
"We should do something!"
"Like what?" Justin stood up and was fixing his junk.
"I heard there was a fair kinda thing going on in town this weekend. We could just go and check it out!" Blake suggested.
"Oh my gosh! Yes! Mouse i love fairs!" You hugged him for the great idea.
"Good for you bro?" He asked Justin while hugging you back.
"Yeah i havent gone to one since i was little! It should be fun!" Justin started putting on his shoes.
You all got ready, grabbed some cash, told your parents where you were going and then left in Justin's car.
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"Holy shit." Justin mumbled as you guys got out of the car.
"Guess we picked the busiest day out of the weekend!" Mouse laughed and put his arm around your shoulder.
You giggled, "Oh come on boys! It'll be fun! We can be one of the kids again!"
You grabbed both their hands and ran through the parking lot to the ticket booth.
"I got you babygirl." Justin said while pulling out his wallet.
"You sure?" You tugged on his jacket.
"Ofcourse! As long as you buy me an icecream!" He winked and kissed your forehead.
"Deal." You whispered while smiling.
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An hour later you had played every game a million times. Justin won you a big caterpillar and Blake won you a cute little whale.
"Nooowww its your turn!" Blake smirked.
"ICECREAM!" Justin yelled.
"FRIED DOUGH!" Blake screamed after him.
"Okay!! Okay!!" You giggled and then started walking towards the foods.
You bought Justin his jumbo large icecream and Blake his gigantic fried dough. You bought yourself a candy apple and sat down at a picnic table.
"How can you guys eat so much?" You stared at them slobbering all over themselves.
They shrugged and kept eating. You giggled and just shook your head.
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"Now what?" Justin asked as he threw out your guys trash.
"THE FUN HOUSE!"
"Really?" They both replied.
"Oh come on! It'll be fun! We said we were gonna be kids tonight right?" You grinned wide
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You walked into the fun house and followed the path through all the funny obstacles. You even got lost in one part. All three of you were having the time of your life just smiling and laughing.
"Oh my gosh! Guys this is the best part!" Blake got excited.
You walked through some plastic strips and there were the crazy mirrors. You started laughing due to memories as a child. You ran to a mirror that made you super tall and wiggly. The next made you extremely small and fat. You and Blake were having a ball taking weird ass selfies in each of the mirrors.
"Wait. Where's J?" You looked up at Blake.
"I dont know i thought he was behind us." He scratched his head.
"Baby? Babe are you in here? Justin?" You were getting worried and started speed walking back through all the mirrors. You found Justin at one of the first mirrors that made you look normal.
"Jesus boobear! You scared me! Come on." You pulled him but he didnt budge.
"Bro whats wrong?" Blake looked concerned as well.
Justin lifted up his arm and pointed towards the mirror. You followed his finger to the glass.
"Who is that?" You stuttered.
You stared at the old man. Wrinkled and weak. Sick and cold. He looked more dead than alive. Who was it?
"Justin. Whats going on?"
"It's me." He touched his cheek and the reflection did the exact same.
"I dont get it. How is that you? You cant age baby."
"I don't know. Maybe im like that on the inside." He didnt take his eyes off his elderly image.
"Do you feel okay man?"
"I feel fine. I just never imagined this. I dont know what to think." Justin sighed.
"J lets go home. It's been a long day." You stood infront of the mirror taking his eyes off of himself and on to you.
"Hi princess." He smiled.
"That's better." You tip-toed and gave him a kiss.
You and Justin held hands walking out of the fair while Blake was right next to you. You hopped in the car and drove home. The house was dark and quiet when you got home so you took off your shoes and silently walked up the stairs. You all changed into pjs and got in bed.
"You okay baby?" You whispered while rubbing Justin's cheek.
"Yeah im okay just a little shocked." He pulled you closer to him.
"Do you think it was a good or bad thing?"
"I have no clue..."
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