Single & A Mom

ℙ𝕒𝕣𝕥 𝟝

ℂ𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕪𝕝'𝕤 𝕡𝕠𝕧

"Nana is that you?" I say is distraught. "Yes Cheryl it's me" she says. I look at her in disbelief. "Cheryl?" "Sorry nana, I'm just confused on how I can actually see you" I say. "Well you summoned me" she said "I- What?" I was so confused.. "You said to give you signs on what to do and by that you summoned me" she said. "I didn't know I could do that" I say with wide eyes. "Good lord child stop being so scared and listen to me" she says "Okay I'm listening" "Cheryl you're doing just fine. You're not a bad mother. That baby girl of yours loves you dearly. Don't let her father get in the way of the bond that you have with your daughter. That little girls face lights up every time she sees you. Don't let your depression and outside issues get in the way of your love for your daughter. You're young, so yes things will be hard here and there, but don't let that stop you from doing what you need and must do" she sincerely said. "Nana I'm trying but somethings holding me back and I don't know what it is" "What has recently came back into your life that's holding you back?" When she asked me that, I paused for a minute "Shawn" I whispered in shock.

I was so in shock that I didn't realize that nana had left and then I hear "𝑰 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖, 𝑪𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒍" I dropped a tear saying "I love you too nana and thank you so much, for everything"

𝕍𝕖𝕣𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕒'𝕤 𝕡𝕠𝕧

"Babe I'm worried" I say to Betty who's holding Toni. "I am too but we need to let her cool down" B says. "IT'S BEEN 3 HOURS BABE!" "VERONICA" Betty snapped at me. "Sorry I'm just concerned about her well being, Cheryl hasn't been herself in forever, babe I'm worried about her" I say "V she's fine, I know where she's at" "Wha- how?" she said with a confused look. "It's obvious. What was Cher's go to place when she was sad?" Then it hit me "Nana Rose" I said "Exactly, so she's fine".

ℂ𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕪𝕝'𝕤 𝕡𝕠𝕧

After sitting for a while longer, I decided to head back to the lodge. It's getting pretty late and I don't want to worry B and V. Least to say I actually feel a lot better than I did this morning. I had a really amazing talk with my nana, now it's time to get back to my daughter. Plus I'm starving and my boobs are kind of starting to ache.

Eventually I got back to the lodge and as soon as I walked through the door, Veronica ran towards me and hugged me really tight making my boobs hurt even more. "Ahhh V, that hurts" I say. "What hurts?" she asked. "My boobs" I say. "Well by the looks of your wet shirt, I'm pretty sure they do" B said and I looked down and the whole top of my shirt was wet. I had leaked. "Fuck! I'll be back" I said covering myself and running upstairs. "Language" V said. I rolled my eyes as I entered the room to shower and change into something comfortable. I looked in the mirror and my boobs are really huge. I need to pump or feed Toni. It's not even funny the amount of milk I produce.

I went back downstairs and when I walked in the living room Toni started to scream in happiness as I walked towards her to grab her. She laid on my chest and began to palm my breast. Good thing she's hungry because I'm dying here. She latched on and seconds later I started to feel a huge relief. Veronica got my breast pump for me so I could pump my other boob while Toni feeds. Her eyes began to flutter meaning she was getting extremely sleepy. "Baby just go to sleep" I smiled at Toni. My little pretty baby, I love her so much.

She's finally sleep, so I unlatched her and went to go lay her down. I looked at her for a brief second before leaving the room. I made sure that I grabbed a baby monitor also. I went back to the living room with all eyes on me. "Can I help you two?" I ask. "Well do you feel better at least?" V asked. "Yes a lot actually. I just needed some fresh air. These past couple of months have been so rough for me" I say. "Trust me, V and I could tell. It's almost as if you lost who you were mentally and physically" B said. "Yea I felt like I had a lot of pressure on myself, but now it's like all of that pain and guilt went away" I say. "Well we're just glad that you're safe" Betty says while kissing my forehead and V holding my hand.