healing tears

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"Hi" you managed to get out without stuttering. All the women staring at you as if you are some sort of experiment or new shiny object. "Right, let me name everyone before we start anything" Dr Staple started and turned to look at the woman you saw earlier in the window. "That's Sally, then we have Ally, Xandra, Diane, Wilhemina, Alice and Lana". You took in each of their names as best you could and tried to attach it to one of their physical attributes. Thinking to yourself 'Sally- frizzy hair. Ally- bob hair cut. Xandra- she looks like a model. Diane- maybe a mum. Wilhemina- easy, fiery red hair and purple is her signature colour. Alice- pretty dress. Lana- well she was the only one you couldn't pin into a box'. "So... then we have staff. Cordelia and Tammy are our counsellors. Nurse for any medical treatment would be either me or Mildred". Dr Staple took a sharp breath in and clasped her hands together. "That is everyone" she smiled, looking back around the room all the staff smiled at you and some of the patients. Some of them. Well for example, Sally didn't smile she just looked at you intensely like she was trying to crack the code. "Y/n how old are you?" Xandra asked whilst everyone kept their eyes glued on you. "I'm just about to turn 20" you replied timidly still. "You're like half everyone's age here" Diane mumbled whilst staring out the window.

Once you had sat down with everyone on the sofas, you felt a lot less like you had to keep your guard up. "Y/n" Tammy suddenly approached you "Dr Staple requests that everyone's belongings get a check over when they arrive, would you like to come upstairs with me to do that?" she suggested whilst still stood next you. After nodding, you followed Tammy through the corridor and up the stairs, panic filling your body just in case she found the one thing in your room. The one object that would definitely be confiscated, but you felt like you needed it. You hopped onto your bed as Tammy when through all the items thoroughly, such as boxes and papers making sure there were no items that could put you or anyone else at harm. Your stomach dropped as she started to pull out your clothes and fold them again once giving them a check over. The pencil sharpener blade you had in your pair of shorts would be found. Anxiety filling your body as you tapped your foot against the floor rapidly. Tammy's hands grasping the pair of shorts, her fingers tracing the seams and reaching into the pockets. "What's th-" she stopped in her tracks as she saw the tiny blade in between her finger tips. "Y/n. I'm going to have to take this from you. Dr Staple will also be informed." she spoke so softly and looked at you with the biggest caring eyes. The colour draining from your face, you silently nodded and carried on watching Tammy as she went through the rest of your things to find nothing else. "It's about dinner time now. Let's head down" she announced.

The chair scraped obnoxiously on the floor as you pulled it out to sit down and you looked up from your seat once everyone had sat. Tammy, Cordelia and Dr Staple started to bring out plates and place them in front of everyone. As soon as the plates landed on the table, the other women started eating straight away. Unsure of when to start, you picked up your fork and sliced the broccoli into pieces. "So, y/n what are you in for?" Lana questioned. "You don't have to answer that yet if you don't want to" Cordelia chipped in to save me from embarrassment. Looking over I could see Alice picking at her food, cutting her food into the smallest pieces possible and taking the tiniest bites. "Alice... Honey, you need to eat some more" Tammy probed gently as she sat next to her. Alice's eyes flicked up to mine holding a second of contact before I looked down at my food and carried on eating. Engaging in small talk with Ally beside you she was telling you about her son. Conversation was carried on throughout dinner until Alice jumped up from her seat excusing herself. Tears in her eyes and lip trembling as she ushered herself out the room. Tammy followed after her, her hand reaching for Alice's to calm her as they disappeared behind the door. "If you can't tell already. Alice is the anorexic one here" Xandra laughed out. You just looked up, no one else laughed. You looked back down at your plate and placed your cutlery on it. Dr. Staple and Cordelia came to collect the dishes as you whispered a quiet thank you to them both. Cordelia then approached you as everyone filtered out. "Since you don't have any plus or minus points then you can watch the movie tonight. Every night you can either watch a movie or do some sort of hobby. Like colouring in. However, friday is the movie night for everyone" she smiled and brought you to the living room. "I feel like everyone has set seats in here" you laughed awkwardly next to Cordelia. "It's ok. The seat next to me is usually free, but I wouldn't say that's a good thing from my perspective" she giggled.

Half way through the movie, which everyone voted for. Alice walked in, her face a little blotchy and she was playing with the hem on her sleeve. You gave her a small smile before averting your attention back to the movie. Which was oceans 8. Movies aren't really your favourite since your attention span is shorter than a piece of string however the women in oceans 8 are your favourite. Your fingers picked at the skin around your nails until the movie ended when you started to feel a little tired. "Right. I know you're an adult but we do have a set bed time for everyone. However, exciting news you have your first meeting with me, Tammy and Dr Staple tomorrow so that's something to dream about" Cordelia smiled. "That'll be in the therapy rooms right?" you asked and she nodded. You went up to your room. Changing into your shorts and a tank top before completely passing out on your bed into a deep slumber from the long day.

- i haven't proofread so if there's any mistakes the you're welcome to bring my attention to it!!
-i fell asleep in the middle of writing this so you'll probably fall asleep whilst reading it lmfaoo