How to fix a broken heart ~ SunaXReader~

~ Chapter 18 ~

Eyes closed. Pumping heart. Happy emotions. Positive thoughts. Is this real? I pinshed myself. "Ouch!" That was really dumb. But pain was so weak against my state. I have him. HIM. The hottest and sweetest middleblocker on earth. I have the best brothers and the best bestie. I don't even care anymore about the rest of the class as long as she is there. I don't care about impressions... People do it themselves anyway. I have suffered so much, I also do deserve to enjoy the good things now. I turned of the shower. Grabbing my towel, I looked into the mirror. Purple, blue, red and even green... My neck, shoulders, back and my ass too. I loved seeing me like this. I am his girl. I giggled to myself. I took fresh clothes on and danced towards my bed. Never ever expected this feeling to come back actually. Guess I was wrong. I smiled. Moving my head to the left, looking towards my phone. I grabbed it and slipped underneath my blanket. It still smelled like him. I took a deep breath from it and turned on my phone.

2 NEW MESSAGES

Suna: So glad they accepted us being together. I arrived at my place btw. Am down to cuddle w u ngl.

Awwwwwe. Smiling at the message.

(Y/N) : AM also down for you ;) Just took a fresh good shower hehe.

Suna : Hey, don't you dare teasing me... Are my marks still hurting?

(Y/N) : Yeah a little bit. Why are you asking?

Suna : Just making sure you feel the pain you get when you act bad. ;)

I rolled my eyes. This was too hot to handle. I was down bad again. But I had to go to sleep somehow... Tomorrow starts normal school again.

(Y/N) : Daddy, your girl is going to sleep now <3 ;) Good night, I love you!!

Suna : Alright, you Brat... you will see what you deserve next time ;) Good night, I love you too

Smiling, I hugged my phone tightly to my chest. Giggling and cuddling myself again. I did fall for him so damn hard as if I jumped down a skyscraper. Before I went to sleep, I checked the other message I received. It was Tara.

Tara : I had a nice evening :) thank u for inviting me too!

(Y/N) : Ofc giiirl. Pls don't thank me for this! Did you get home safe?

Tara : Yeah, actually, Suna was driving me home.

Huh? Wait, where did it go? The feeling... My stomach hurts. One of my biggest problems returned earlier than expected. Jealousy.
But I know that he is just a good guy. MY Suna babe loves ME. I am the ONLY one for him. Let's swallow this dumb feeling.

(Y/N) : Oh? Well good, now I know that you had a safe travel :) I am tired girl, don't be mad at me pls for going to sleep now!!

Tara : Oh girl, me too! Ofc i am not mad. Sleep well !! Cya in school tmrw <3

I turned my phone off. Carefully, I put my phone back to where it was. I stared into the dark. I did know I can get jealous, but this was so fast tho. I didn't waste much more time on thinking about this and went to sleep. Grabbing the blanket closer and smelling his left scent as I fell asleep.

The next morning was quite odd. I woke up with a good mood and peaked outside my window. It was a pretty sunny monday. I got up and grabbed my legging. I felt like wearing a crop top today. My head was reliving the day yesterday while I brushed my teeth. I noticed the marks again in the mirror. Slightly removing my hair from my neck, I checked how far it went. Oh jesus... it covers my entire neck... I needed to cover it before the gossip would start to go around. Otherwise, I sure do want to make people see that I am his girl and how much he loves me. I better be not causing any trouble now. I am still new so whatever. After I covered everything up, I grabbed my bag and went downstairs. "Morning Samu! Where is Tsumu?" I asked my almost coffee addicted brother. He smiled. "Hi little one... Uh, I think he already went to school. I don't know why tho." That was odd. We always wanted to go together. I guess it has a good reason so I didn't think much about it. Although Samu looked like he knew something more than me. "Wanna eat something?" He asked me. I shook my head. "Nah I am not hungry tho." Samu raised a eyebrow. "What? I never feel like eating something so early..." "But you know that training won't be good if you don't have something in your stomach, right?" I rolled my eyes. I grabbed a bare toast out of the box and stuffed the corner in my mouth. I looked over to him, if he was satisfied. He began laughing. "You look stupid. Alright let's go." He swung his arm around me and walked towards the door with me. My nose smelled the nice summer air as the door opened. I love this as much as I love winter air. "Sooo... Uhm... You sure know ... like... Uh, Are you satisfied with our team?" Samu randomly asked. I took another bite out of my toast and gave him a confused look. "What do you mean, satisfied?" He scratched his head. "Well look... mee and Tsumu, we were planning on bringing you into Volleyball, right? And I was just wondering... you know, besides us... and Uh well Suna... If you like Volleyball. Like "Love"-like Volleyball." What the fuck? This is so out of nowhere... "Uhm. Is there a problem? I mean yeah, I sure do like it. It gives me energy and to be honest I needed it so... I am thankful. But why are you asking me this? This is so random Samu. Did something happen?" I asked. He looked away. "Uh, no no. Everything is alright. I was uhm just asking, you know?" I didn't believe him. He really is a bad lair and definitely has to hide something. "Does it has something to do with Tsumu? Is this the reason why he was gone?" Samu just awkwardly smiled at me. I knew it... He sighed. "Look, we had a very unusual conversation last night. He told me things I would never expect from him. He doesn't really feel satisfied with all this." My heard began to ache. "With all this? Me and Suna? Why? Was he faking everything? Why would he do that to me?" Samu stopped and took both of his hands onto my shoulders. "Look (Y/N) please don't stress over it now, it's not good. The point why he is upset is, that he thinks you just will show up now because of Suna and not actually because you are interested in Volleyball." I pushed his hands off. "What?!" I couldn't believe it. Does he thinks I would legitimately do this? After all the trying from both of my brothers? "I said don't get upset (Y/N)... This is useless." I didn't understand. "And he cannot be honest with me? Like what the hell? Did you say something to him?" He looked down. "I tried. But we both know him. If he is mad, we should just leave him like that. He needs time I guess." "But if we JUST leave him like that, why would you tell me?" His face went back up. Eyes locked. "I am scared that he will confront you in front of everyone for just being there because of Suna. If he won't see that you are actually trying to get better, he will..." "THATS STUPID!" I yelled. Completely pushing him out of the line. "I just talked about it yesterday. I want to get better. I want to show you I CAN get better. Why is it everytime I do something, there is going to be a counterplay? Yes of course I am happy to be with Suna! And what now? Will he punish me or something? I don't get it. I hate his behavior sometimes... Samu why didn't you say something?" He slapped his hand onto his thigh. "Jesus, I DID! I said I tried. But you cannot get into that stubborn little brain of his. You know him! He is basically just being passionate about Volleyball and wants you to step into his footsteps." He explained. "What if I don't want to? Is he now just pushing me to do it? Was that the plan? I cannot live my life now that he has decided to choose what's good or bad for me?" My anger ruined the morning. I was fuming. Why couldn't Tsumu just talked to me like normal? If I don't like something, it's when I find things out behind others backs. I hate this childish behavior. He is older than me. Since no comment came, I continued going to school. "(Y/N) promise me to not do something stupid now that you are mad." He knows what I normaly do. I rolled my eyes. "Like what? Choosing my own path? I need time Samu. Now that I know I cannot have a boyfriend in the same team because it would ruin anything for the future." I said and turned my back on him. Sorry Samu, but I really don't understand the problem. I just want to be happy.