HE WAS ONCE.. A NERD

Chapter 7 - Here Goes Nothing

After eating breakfast, I went back upstairs to continued unpacking and fixing my things. It felt scorching hot in Arizona, like even the simplest things felt so hard to do because of the heat. Don't get me wrong Ohio could get hot during the summer but Arizona is on a different level.

I was starting to think that I should hang out it in the pool a little later in the afternoon. While I was fixing my things when a sudden notification popped up on my phone. Terrence Cole wants to follow you! That's what it said on my Instagram notifications.

Wow this man wastes no time at all, I thought so to myself. He has some guts following me on social media after what has just happened. Luckily my account was on private and he can't see anything unless accept his follow request. I was about to accept it luckily; I remember that Luke and I still had a lot of photos on my page.

I got up to lay on my bed and scroll through my feed. I stopped using Instagram a month back just so I could avoid seeing Georgia's posts with Luke on Instagram. I don't want to unfollow her and make her feel victorious with getting under my skin.

I clicked my profile and went through our photos. It made me realize how much a short span of one year with a person can make up so many memories. It was my first time seeing this, my mom ended up buying me a new phone last month and I decided not to sync my old photos from my previous phone just so I don't have to deal with going through each one and deleting the ones with Luke in it.

I scrolled through and found our first photo. It made me remember the first time he asked me out on a date, how we spent the day getting ice cream and walking around. I found myself staring at each photo we had together and did not notice tears streaming down my face.

My body started curving into a ball and I did not even realize I was already sobbing loudly. I heard someone knock on my door, I thought it was my mom and it gave me some kind of relief but when I turned to look it was actually Terrence.

"What?"

I said with my eyes read with tears and my voice sounding raspy because of all the crying.

"Are you alright? Your mom and Aunt Terry went out to do grocery shopping. Aunt Terry asked me to bring you with me if I was going out just so you have company"

He looked slightly annoyed, and it made me realize that he was not exactly happy about the proposition Mrs. C asked of him. But I also saw on his face a glimpse of concern and worry but he did not really want to show it.

I slowly got up and wiped the tears from my eyes.

"You can go without me. I'll be fine here"

I responded without hesitation.

Terrence's eyes hovered over my opened phone screen that was now on one of the photos on my Instagram with Luke and I together.

"Well, I guess my Instagram follow may have caused all this, you sure you don't want to talk about it?"

I hesitated. My chest felt so heavy I wanted to scream.

"It's not that I don't want to talk about it. I just don't want to be a burden to people anymore because of what I am going through with this stupid break up."

I responded with my head staring at the foot of the bed.

I lifted my head to look at him and I was surprised with the expression on his face. He almost looked sincerely worried.

"Oh, come on, you can tell me. I am all ears. I've had my fair share of shitty break ups any way. I am not one to judge."

He said gently, trying not to lose his "I'm still a cool guy" energy.

I made me feel warm, how I deeply know that Terrence cared but he was acting too cool to show it. I decided to share what happened starting from the very beginning and we ended up both sitting down on the floor beside the foot of my bed.

I was so proud of myself for not crying while sharing to Terrence what happened.

"It seems to me like you were fine before coming here and then the Douch bag decided "wow she looks fine let me call her again!" That is so annoying."

He said while doing air quotes and rolling his eyes. 

"I never thought I would see this side of you Terrence, I am actually surprised"

Terrence looked away and I noticed how his ears were turning red.

"But seriously Paris, have you ever thought of hearing him out?"

He asked while turning back to look at me.

"Well, I did. But I know he has been doing this behind my back for some time before I saw it in person, I was just too dumb and too in love to realize it. For the last 2 months of our relationship, he was always unavailable and busy. He would usually take me with him if he was going out with his team mates but it just suddenly stopped. I had a feeling but I was in denial and did not have the courage to admit to myself that something wrong was going wrong. I convinced myself that I had to see it with my own two eyes before I actually believe it. So that's why I don't want to hear him out, I don't want him to talk to me and make up another dumb excuse. I am so tired of it."

I said while start tugging on my fingers, a thing I do when I am nervous.

There was a long pause, almost like an awkward silence but not quite. Suddenly like it was on cue, my phone started ringing. I checked and I realized it was Luke, the same phone number that called last night. I did not want to pick it up, a part of me wanted to and was happy he was pursuing me but another part of me was exhausted and did not want to hear his excuses anymore.

I was about to pick my phone up when Terrence took it. My eyes widened with shock and I got up to take it from him. I was only 5'2 ft. tall while Terrence was around 6ft. It was so hard for me to get my phone back.

He answered the phone call.

"Hello? What do you want?"

It was followed by a short pause while Terrence was listening to what Luke had to say.

"Come on, leave her alone man. She told you she does not want to talk to you."

He said sounding slightly annoyed.

He stayed on the phone for a few seconds before ending the call and cutting off what Luke had to say.

"I'm sorry I had to do that; I hate looking at you crying. Get dressed we are going out."

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"I am taking you with me to the skate park. I hate leaving you here moping like that. You look ridiculous"

He said teasingly with a small chuckle.

"Fine, beats me." I responded with a shrug.

I got up to get dressed while Terrence walked out of the room. "Hopefully today will be fun" I thought to myself. Here goes nothing.

Author's note:

Sorry it took 6 years for me to write again. I read some of your comments and saw that you guys wanted more. Did not expect that. I will continue to write this, I promise. First 6 parts were kind of cringe. Hope you understand I was still a child when I started writing that lol. May edit all that stuff soon. Thank you for your support!