Temptation (NEW)

Chapter Five

The silence was unbearable. It may have only lasted a few seconds, but it felt like hours of just uncomfortable staring. I didn't know what to do. He looked so frazzled and panicky. His eyes had dropped to the floor, avoiding my gaze entirely. This was not how I expected the night to go.

"I thought you were into guys," he softly replied. His voice was so timid that it almost didn't sound like him. It was kind of heart wrenching to hear.

"Uh, well---yeah, I am," I stuttered out. I shifted in my seat, finding it impossible to find any comfort. "But that doesn't mean I'm into every single guy I see."

He nodded slowly with his face contorting into humiliation.

"I see," he sighed.

"Plus, I wasn't expecting that at all," I added. I sounded more harsh than I intended.

He grimaced, "Sorry."

We sat quietly for another couple of seconds. I stared at my fidgeting hands in my lap. This was not the kind of tension I was used to with him, but I suppose it's better than a fight. My mind was racing with so many questions, yet one thing stood out over the chaos. My own feelings.

"I think you would have gotten a better reaction if you had just asked," I shyly spoke up.

"Would you have said yes?" he solemnly questioned.

I nodded, "Yeah, probably."

"Probably?"

I nervously laughed, "I would have thought you were just dicking with me. Playing a cruel joke or something to ruin my life."

Sasuke shook his head. "No, but you can easily ruin my life now."

I had almost forgot about that. He has an entire relationship right now. Even if I wanted to say something about it, Sakura would just want to kill me, too. For now, my mouth is shut.

"I wouldn't do that," I assured. "I'm not cruel, you know."

We sat quietly again. I could feel myself getting worked up---panicked. Not because of the kiss and situation, but because I wanted to try again. You'd think it'd be easy to ask, but it was Sasuke sitting right beside me. He was such a mystery, especially in this moment. Would he say yes, or did I already ruin the moment?

"Sasuke?" I called out to him.

"Yeah?"

He was still looking down at his feet. I wanted him to look at me because somehow I figured it'd be easier to talk to him. My grandfather always told me that a person's eyes said a lot about how they actually feel. "The eyes never lie," he'd say. I'm pretty sure he read that in a Playboy or something, but I think it's still pretty true.

"Can you---Can you just ask me?" I pleaded.

He finally looked up at me, and I could see the spark of relief surge through him.

"Can I...kiss you?" he timidly asked.

I didn't bother to say yes. I pulled him close until our lips connected again. A proper kiss this time. Now, I'm sure you're wondering why I'd ever be willing to kiss someone that had previously tried to make me lick up the beer I spilled on his shoe. Here's the thing---I've always had feelings for Sasuke. I failed to mention that in the beginning, mainly because I refuse to admit it. The first time I ever noticed it was back in middle school when puberty was kicking my ass. He was sitting across the cafeteria, eating strawberries that his mother had lovingly packed in his lunchbox for him. I remember sitting there and thinking, "If I kissed him right now, his lips would taste like those strawberries." Sasuke was my gay-awakening. I realized in that moment that I liked dudes just as much as girls. I liked Sasuke.