I've gotten better since last week. I had to really sit down & think like nau'jour wouldn't want me sitting around here depressed. He would want me to continue living not forgetting him & I'm definitely not forgetting him but there's still times when i break down real bad.
Right now we just got done putting him in the ground. His family's speeches touched my heart. I couldn't even speak because i knew if i did my words weren't gonna be able to come out clearly so my momma spoke for me. I love her.
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When i got home i changed my clothes & got in bed.
My clothes i ordered last week supposed to been here.
"Tabatha ion going to no party" i said.
"Von gone be there" she said tryna get me to go.
"Ok? i still don't wanna go" i said.
"You need something to get your mind off today" she pouted.
"I know" i said.
"So come with me & herb" she said.
"You not gone stop asking huh?" I asked.
"Nope" she shook her head.
"Okay fine I'll go" i said.
"Wear something colorful" she smiled.
"Okay... what time?" I asked.
"10" she said.
"Okay" i mumbled. "Hello" i answered vons call off my ipad.
"Who you talking to?" Tabatha asked.
"Von" i said.
"Yea" he said.
"No i meant tabatha" i said.
"Ight I'm talking to ha now go find you something else to do" he said making sure she heard him.
"Dayvon imma block you" i said.
"Nigga ain't chu graduate at 19? shut yo dumbass up" tabatha said.
